you're not the only one who has assignments ok?
my things-to-do are much than yours.
so don't say you have lots of things undone.
because I have much more things undone compare to you.






FYL

TIRED.
assignments are normal
but it's also tiring enough.

Now, it's not only the "assignments"
it's the camp
it's the SIFE
it's the Co-curricular day
4 combos at a time.
too many functions at a time.

the thing that bothers me the most will be the co-curricular day.
will be held on the 18th of December
but I'm going up to Fraser hill on the 17th until 19th
so what should I do?

if I don't go the Co-curricular day, I might fail and have to pay a repeat fee amount to RM160!
what kind of college is this? this is all bullshits.
I didn't knew events could crashed in this way.
I promised to go Fraser hill before I know the date of the competition.
and the Bohnyface told me if I don't go he'll fail me.
what bullshits is he talking?
I didn't choose not to go ok?
it's just I joined the camp first, settled everything,
and then only I know the date of the co-curricular day.

I don't wanna fail my Co-curricular, it's not about the money.
It's about the golden time that I have to face next year.
so many subjects have to take. I don't have the time to do other stuffs.
this is so freaking tired.
but I still have one more hope
I will talk to him and explain my situation.

So, guan yin pu sa. please let me pass my co-curricular without going the competition and get to go fraser hill as well.
PLEASEEE!!!

TELL ME!

I wonder why every time I text mien. she'll reply me the first or two messages.
after I send the third or second message, she'll never reply me.
starting to get sick of it, put so much expectations on her replies, but didn't have it.
saw her texting with her college mate - ric,once, texting non-stop.
I was like., what? what am I? ya What not Who.
wanted to ask her every time, but didn't get the chance.
because once we start chatting I'll be busy talking on other exciting topics.
now she offline, replied her message ady, but I think she won't reply me.
ya, so, fine. never mind.

mien, once you see this, tell me why. TELL me why,
tell me, tell me, te te te tell me. lol.
 *tell me by wonder girls*
remember ah. tell me!

have to go Da zhi later.
and mummy bought a Shu uemura eye lashes curler for my sis LOL!
whatever.

I suddenly have the urge to do many things.
First - go genting
Second - go CHS - QM room
Third - hang out with friends
3 main things currently.

I have no idea why I feel so.
whatever it is, I just wanna make it happen.

I don't think she care already
in that case,
SO should I.
whatever, if she give up I give up as well.

as you could see I've said 3 times whatever, so random
I feel so whatever now, means no feelings.
I'd frozen.
*kock kock* break into pieces.
Toodles peeps

regretness. forgiveness. disappointment.

If you wanna turn the whole thing up and down again

I cannot do anything.

If you're regretting what you did and what you promised that day,
no one can stop you from your feelings,
go ahead and felt the regretness
and as well as I'm sorry,
because we couldn't put into practice as well.

and forgive us that things aren't changing the way we expected.

Apparently, we all made things up side down.

maybe we did that, but I don't think we started that.

and right now 

I won't give a damn on that stupid bastard issue anymore.

I give up on you, there's nothing else more I can say.

maybe this is the last time we do things together.

because every time you do things, you're trying to show that you're the strongest. 

being very special, to be exact, to show off.

I don't understand why you have to act that way every time you're given an opportunity.

and you'll say :

"I just wanna appreciate the opportunity given and wanna learn more from that."
that aint wrong BUT!

you don't have to be so arrogant, and "sharing" people's work.
some how people will feel that they are worthless.
then, lack of confidence, then don't feel like going.
WHY?

anyway, that's my point of view,
as for yourself,
I don't have any idea on what are you trying to do.
So I should just put a stop on that,
not hoping any change from you.
got numb of the way you are.

I know I was rude at the previous post, I apologize for that.
not giving any excuses, obviously I was very furious.
this issue always existed, but we're trying to run away from the fact in the past. like always!
we always tell each other, after function you'll be back to normal.
but think deeper, there's too many functions,
and everytime you get worse and even step on people's head just to avoid the crowded place
that's way too over people's line. this problem continues for years.
and now I wanna step out and end this stupid bastard issue.
because I couldn't bare with it anymore. I wanna put a full stop.
It doesn't mean that I wanna end this friendship,
I just wanna have a friendship with no inner war.
Chances are always given to you, I don't know whether you appreciate it or not.
maybe you've tried but you couldn't change.
the words in red colour are bullshits.
people will change and can change. they won't stop in the only spot.
we move forward everyday. every hour, every minute, every second.

for what I said in the above
"I don't give a damn, I give up on you,"
I don't really wanna do that as well.
so for your goodness sake,
don't be so arrogant in front of people
don't make some one delightful just because you wanna be the top.
don't seek attention from people. it makes people puke, sometimes.
don't blame on us if we do anything wrong during functions, but you step aside as if it's non of your business
don't take all the merit that was suppose belongs to all of us
*it's like you're trying to give them a bad impression of us*
the merits are unimportant to me, I don't give the shit of the merits
but the impression worth a thousand million dollars ok?

SO,
I'm giving you another time to be a better you
and at the same I'm giving myself another time to be a better me as well.
don't repeat it in the future.
I hope this is the last time that we will say
"last chance"

I hope this because I don't want this issue to pop out in the future.
meaning no more backstabbing and writing such post in the blog to tell each other.
Yes, last chance, if you missed it, or you take it but you broke it someday.
by then, I seriously got nothing to say, and don't want to bother already.
till then



 BEST OF LUCK!

Seriously, when it comes to doing stuff.
I hate you like hell!
like super hate!
in fact sometimes I hate you as well.

so here it goes
don't act you're special and better than us. You're nothing ok?
don't act your the best among us.
don't act you have the brain but we don't
don't act like you know everything
don't act like you're smart
don't act like you're pretty
don't act like you're great
don't act like you're the precious one
I'll GIVE YOU TWO WORDS!

























FUCK YOU!!!!!
























no. should be 3 words.






































































FUCK YOU BITCH!!!!
































I'm not trying to be violent or being rude.
you guys won't know how I feel now.
because that person I was talking about
is a one big sohai! trust me, you won't wanna get to know that person.
because you'll find out that person
is a person who would backstab you just to get what they want, and what they want to achieve.
so beware of that person.

If I get the chance.
I would slap that person until
his/her mother couldn't recognize them.
and get in a fight with them.
and end our friendship once and for all.
like seriously lo. really sohai one lo that person.
my gosh, I really am so pissed off right now.

I CANNOT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT THIS PERSON IS SO FAKE
I CANNOT SEE WHY SHE HAVE TO BE SO FAKE
I CANNOT TELL WHAT THIS PERSON REALLY WANT TO BE SO FAKE
GAH! I'M SO PISSED NOW!!!

REALLY WANNA SLAP HER AND BUZZ OUT THE THINGS THAT I WANT TO TELL.
BETTER YET, QUARREL WITH THAT PERSON, AND FAN MIN!
FUCK THAT SOHAI BITCH! ARGH!!!!

last post was 5 days ago.
was at Da zhi for the past few days, didn't get the chance to online also
too busy. good for me lo, i always wanted to be a busy woman.

I went UNIQLO today. bought a pair of jeans and a jacket. super like it.
I think I could only update till here.
got to finish my work and buzz to Da zhi later.
I'm a busy woman haha.
you got that!

so many days didn't update.
so busy with camp lately. online pun takda masa.
used to online everyday but have to quit that habit already
body got heated up, too hot already
made my eyes gone red for the past few days.

about the camp. wonder how to settle up everything
have to go college, have to go temple cause of camp,
have to think of mien's birthday, have to prepare for mid-term test. hell busy.
teenage camp going fraser hill, bet I have to bring my notes along with me
cause by that time is week 12, meaning final is around the corner by the time.

and the weather today was much more like an oven than a weather.
SO HOT YOU KNOW!
and the sun light, it's like it can burn up my skin.
imagine how hot it is.
stay at Da Zhi for the whole day
I'm the only one among sista who went, bet they either were lazy or busy.

just now wanna find mien chat one,
but I think she's busy with her assignments and stuff la
don't wanna kacau her. I will sorry if I disturb her.

oh and the UNIQLO how come every body went to q for few hours just to for the opening?
I read newspaper, it was mentioned that the sale until 18th of November lo
why everyone have to go on the opening day leh? I memang tak faham lo.
whatever la, I'm going on coming Wednesday anyway.

got my Macro test 1 result, no full marks this time.
a bit disappointed of myself, shouldn't had change the answer
if not I get full marks already.
but whatever la, just let it be la. try my best will do.
next time have to work harder and do not put so much expectation on yourself.
ya, should tell myself about that often. don't get too stress. *wink! haha

got to get to bed now. 10.32pm already.
tomorrow need to go Da Zhi some more.
good night peeps