Be beyond than people. Special

2011-12-20T19:53:00.001+08:00

People move on for a reason,

because they got sick of waiting,

because they finally letting it go,

and the utmost is they are no longer in love with that person.

Yes, for me, I'm ticking 3 of it, ya all of it.

So, my ex, the one that once made me felt how pathetic I am.

He suddenly came up texting me one day,

the only thing I thought was,

what is he trying to do?

Trying to steal his ex from the current boyfriend?

partly Yes.

I was stunned.

He asked for another chance

but the only thing I knew was

it's too late for you to regret for what you did

you asked for it, I respect you and now,

I've moved on to a better life, so don't stay in the past.

kindly my advise.

people look forward.

Freshkon Alluring Eyes Model Search 2011

2011-11-09T14:04:00.001+08:00

I joined the Freshkon Alluring Eyes Model Search 2011

in the month of October

so, what I'm about to say for the next second is

ya you know, that's right

I'm one of the top 50 finalist

to get the chance to win the prizes

I need your help

in order to get into top 3

can you readers help to vote for me?

what you have to do is

First, click on the link below

Freshkon Alluring Model Search 2011

Then, click on Top 50 Finalist and search for Yinsan Lai

(this is the photo you should be voting for)

ya, that's me.

I used this to join the contest

and then click VOTE!

Vote for me and Spread it to your friends =)

Please do not hesitate to vote for me alright?

it will only take you a few seconds to do so.

your vote is much appreciated!

KAMSAHAMIDA!!! *90 degree bow*

2011-11-04T09:42:00.001+08:00

a rainy morning

what's best about a rainy morning?

you feel like sleeping until the rain stops.

BUT, I have to pull myself up from the bed

to attend classes, ya I woke up at 7am

whereas my class starts at 8am

so not enough for me to get ready, take my breakfast

do my prayer and the journey to my college

this is totally insufficient.

maybe not totally, ya but

who knows that the traffic today are more congested than normally it is?

screw today, thought of reaching college JUST IN TIME

too bad, the traffic screw it. jam all the way,

and I was late for half an hour

so, decided to attend the other class

since no attendance will be taken if

I'm late for half an hour or more

so, lately we are sort of busy

ok, it's just you not me.

a little tiny bit not used to it

but somehow just have to

and ALSO I'M SO SO

so worried that your scholarship will be terminated

hope you'll do well in your course

I believe you can.

you'll just have to pay more effort in it

and change the habit of not doing homework back then.

fighting!

next class starting soon.

appearing as off now

BYE

2011-11-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

approaching week 8.

and worst part of being on the 8th week?

I feel like I don't get any input ==

it's alright. still have 7 more weeks to work hard

I know I can do it.

ANYEONG!

2011-11-01T15:20:00.000+08:00

what else more can I say

I'm having a hectic week

since Saturday until now

Saturday attended the SPONTANEOUS

QM BBQ Gathering among ourselves at kexin's house

ya, I drank too much that night.

went from

sober-tipsy-and I guess a little drunk LOL

NO GROUP PHOTO. MISTAKE

had so much fun that night. HEHE

ya, and I had hangover the next morning

slept at around 6 I think damn imba

had the rest of the day with them as well

Hand in my Business Law today

took my business economics yesterday

and TOMORROW, so stage

Fundamentals of Accounting.

but whatever. MD.

just give it in. but still scared.

okay. i damn dy. should shuddap now.

BYE

2011-10-24T10:59:00.000+08:00

been working for the past 2 days

since first time working for such fair or expo

*FYI* CIS Homedec 2011

actually it's kinda interesting

standing all day, making sales, getting to know new friends

saw a lot of families, different pattern of kids. LOL

it's great to be exact

and it's really a small world

you'll never know who I met

it was Han Yang's elder Brother

this is kinda freaky

because when I first look at him

I though him looking alike to Han Yang

and it happened to be his brother

I never knew he has a brother yo. *facepalm*

*goosebumb*

I don't feel like doing anything today

there is one thing,

hang out at the mall

that's what I wanna do

I don't feel like going temple nor college

just the mall. I HOPE SO!

and movies waiting for me to watch

I AM SO OUTDATED.

the boyfie is so busy with his assignment

everybody watched real steel

left me him ab nam

who else? I DON'T KNOW

cause seems like we are the only left.

SO SIEN KAY?

urgh. in dilemma!

bye. I wanna sleep

toodle peeps

2011-10-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

a little bit moody today

no any reason

ok not not at all

going temple tonight might be the reason

anyway half way leaving temple for yum cha session.

I seriously wanna get drunk

despite where am I having it

even my house will do

something's bothering me

but no clue on what it is

okay, fine

shall stop whining about things I don't even know

off-ing bye.

still being a yoona-wannabe =)

toodle peeps.

2011-10-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

LOL. done watching

Taiwan drama Who's the One

AND

Singapore Series Devotion

LOL. both are pawesome. hehe

both of the series

*two thumbs up*

GO WATCH!!!

2011-10-11T21:02:00.001+08:00

this semester is just so stressful and it's only the 4th week

I can tell it's gonna get tougher in the following weeks

now, what's bothering me is this ulcer in my mouth

my goodness, it really hurts. I've tried so many ways to get rid of it

put on with salt, apply some papaya cream

but it just seems the SAME after 2 days of trying

SHIT. JUST GO AWAY, you make me miserable these few days

seriously, feel like digging it out with a small knife

and I don't know what to do with it

since touching it with my tongue

stretching my mouth

drinking water

will eventually make me pain. T.T

urgh, fine whatever.

water, you're my only saviour.

see? EMO-ing

BYE

2011-10-04T15:31:00.001+08:00

LOL. lovin' my new blog title image

feels so warm every time I view my blog

waiting for my 4pm lecture

thought of blogging to kill time

puff, here I am blogging =)

I wanted to cook quite badly these days

still wondering what to cook,

baking is not a bad thing to do also

will consider, provided I have sufficient time

certain people were so persist

on the concept of materialistic or vain

they were so against it back then

but now? they're just one of those

materialistic and vain dumb badass

being beautiful doesn't has to own a fab life.

beautiful is easy. that's the definition

I would like to clarify a thing

I wasn't pointing about anyone

just what I saw in the society

and made my light bulb lighted for that moment

So, if any of you who are reading

please don't misunderstand =)

*even sometimes I feel I'm kind of materialistic and vain

JUST SOME TIMES

about the new semester

my Financial Management tutor

he looks a bit alike to Zang Zi Wai HAHA

okay, what I really wanted to point out is

he always left us inside the fire

and you rescue your life by yourself

it means he's not gonna give us any

hard copy of the answers

but by giving it orally. ==

I went "Mr. Chai, why you so awesome?"

ya, now what's left is my own effort since

HE IS NOT GIVING ANYTHING

might die just like that

IF I couldn't undersand

please be good to me, buddha *prayhard

Last last last.

SNSD hahaha

they're making a comeback this week or next week

NOT SURE. postponed.

one word. EXCITED!

you should be excited as well. LOL

off for class. BYE

toodles peeps. XOXO

a promise to myself

2011-10-03T12:29:00.001+08:00

I think I remember I promised myself to update this blog frequently

make it more lively, but so obvious this blog has been dead for months.

My new sem has started.

I don't like my new time table at all. but luckily the college was kind enough

that they make my Friday class ends at 1.30pm. not bad huh?

but Monday till Wednesday schedule are so tiring.

Seriously you cannot imagine it.

cause it's the first time that my class ends at 7pm.

fortunately, my tutor has this habit to end class asap.

meaning we can end this shitty 7pm earlier.

Well, enough said on the new sem thingy.

I was planning to go club last Friday

since my parents are not at KL

but the pathetic thing is, I found out that

I have no clubbing kakis at all.

Yes, I don't have. So, I turn off the plan

But, I did earned a little that Friday night

yes, you heard me, earned. in terms of money

It was the Affin Investment Bank Annual Dinner

held at Royale Chulan Hotel, splendid isn't is?

photos to be uploaded soon, it's with Brandon Chee

Me, Mei ying, Lin lin, Eva and Brandon went to work that night

because Eva works at the event organizer company

and Brandon mum is a friend of the boss.

So ya, we had fun that night. though is short. Haha

and also, that Friday I went to the Padini Warehouse Sale

It was madness, it was so crowded

flooded with so many people inside

the moment I stepped into the warehouse

I started to sweat like pouring rain. imagine that!

I think no photos were taken, you should really have a look on that madness

RM5 for all items, who wouldn't want it?

I did grab something nice though, and it's all black and white

I cannot swear that this is my last time

doing such crazy thing

but it's quite fun having such experience

my sis will definitely say I gone insane

but what I think is, sis, you're too not adventurous

no wonder she has a boring life, lifeless much indeed

no joke, she has NO LIFE at all

I didn't see her hanging out as often as I do

I didn't see her keeping in touch with her friends.

Well, everybody's different, that is why.

Enough for today, need to have my lunch now

supah hungry, yes I mean it.

almost faint while watching TV just now.

HAHA.

toodles peeps. XOXO

big small eyes I have
urgh, c'mon everybody DOES.

2011-09-24T19:36:00.001+08:00

I do not know how to blog anymore. Forgive me. LOL I SUCK HAHA

toodles peeps

2011-08-20T19:08:00.000+08:00

It's time for an update. as simple as it could be
I think I'm freaking out of my mind.
Still daring to waste some of my time to blog a little LOL

Well, apparently having finals and I don't feel like sitting it
but in fact I cannot do so because this is my finals
and I fight so hard for it, hopefully my results give me a pay back. 4.0 perhaps? *cross fingers

and there is this person who was and is and always will be annoying.
F him. you don't have the right to decide where should I and shouldn't go.
stop giving me those retarded face
I'm not like your pet sister who as well give those face you have.
turn your face around and keep it away from me.
I DON'T LIKE IT.

thank you for lighting up my anger today. *WHY TODAY*?
now I feel like I'm the loneliest person in the world
F you. you retard

Empty Apartment

2011-07-06T20:51:00.000+08:00

I sense changes.

I don't know what to do.

I'm afraid of everything.

Just save me.

*forget about it Lai Yin San, no one will be there to save you, you're invisible, remember?*

oh, now I remember, thank you for reminding me. appreciate it much.
ya, I live in an empty apartment. Just me, nothing else.
don't show sympathy, I don't deserve it anyway. I have exist problem.
So you can ignore my existence, cause I don't really exist anyway.
bye.

2011-07-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

I sense changes.

I don't know what to do.

I'm afraid of everything.

Just save me.

Song of the day.

2011-07-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

Down On My Head - Yellowcard

I work all night
For one more day that I can say I'm all alone
Alone
I just need time and I will say what I believe and I'll come home
Home

And all I know

I never thought I would wake up in bed
watching the world coming down on my head
I'd sleep like a dog if you would never have said
this is the world coming down on your head

As life flies by
I'm not sure how I'm gonna do this all again
Again
So line by line I write this down and I'm just trying to find the end
The end

And all I know

I never thought I would wake up in bed
watching the world coming down on my head
I'd sleep like a dog if you would never have said,
this is the world coming down on your head
You gave it to me I remember it read,
you've got the world coming down on your head
There's nothing to fight for it's already dead
and this is the world coming down on my head

when will it all end
what of you makes others follow you

I never thought I would wake up in bed
watching the world coming down on my head
I'd sleep like a dog if you would never have said,
this is the world coming down on your head
I'm not gonna swallow the lie that I'm fed
cause I want the world coming down on my head
You're gonna find out you're already dead
and I was the world coming down on your head

2011-06-28T23:22:00.001+08:00

just a simple update on my current activities for the month of July.

July:
First week - week 9 tax coursework test

second week - week 10
Financial Accounting coursework test
submission for entrepreneurship business plan proposal
submission for principle of finance report writing
submission for management accounting fundamentals assignment
presentation for entrepreneurship business plan

third week - week 11 continue presentation. (if we're not presenting on week 10)

so screwed. everything on week 10 and it's week 8 ady. *sweating like hell.
and this week, management accounting fundamentals coursework test.
the subject I fear most. cause I don't understand at all. T.T
damn stage. ==
need a sand bag to punch as hard as I could. urgh! gonna burst!

whatever. hungry out of sudden.
hunting for food. bye.

2011-06-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

some times things are just to complicated to be written out in sentence or splitting out verbally.

people might not realize what you meant even though you tell them about it

because some people are like lantern made by leather. never will understand.

I don't feel like talking much about it

as I'm so depressed over this situation

so I shall just shuddap, cause no point yelling all out here.

this is just devastating.

p/s: i wanna cry out loud

my 400th post.

2011-06-23T21:06:00.001+08:00

stay tune for tomorrow's update. or you could just view my spam-ed twitter.
and I deleted those retard posts I blogged 2-3 years ago.
ya, the VERY stupid ones. those pathetic posts I teared for that useless asshole
because it looks dumb. seriously. like a girl desperate for love
I flash back about it also wanna puke ady. *eiouk*
yes, I was that stupid.
if you don't get it, it's alright, cause it's unnecessary
whatever, now everything's over *to be exact, it was over since 2 years ago,
and I got my good life going on.
I got my friends and family, and also the bf. =) (Y)
I'm happy now. =) but currently, apparently now I mean. I'm pissed. ==
Imma blog about it tomorrow. everything.

2011-06-23T16:58:00.001+08:00

so unprepared for tomorrow's principle of finance coursework test.
haven't start studying, not even a kichi miaw.
so screwed, more over, the test starts at 8am.
conclusion, can die.

few days before was my birthday, and did celebrate for it.
thanks the QMs for attending the steamboat dinner, much appreciated.
and also, thanks to the boyfriend.
accompanied me the whole day just to do shopping.
and of course that day, was fun.

so, I
lunch, movie and shopped at Sunway, 3-in-1 from 12pm to 7pm
I know, crazzie. and then steamboat from 8pm to 10pm
LOL, the funniest part, BBJ from 10pm-12am.
yes I was out for more than 12 hours, not finished with the flow yet.
after that, fetched yee min, wen xing, and lin foong home.
took us 2 hours to fetch 3 of them home, chun kan?
and ya, I got home at 2.30am.
so for exact calculation. I left home at 11.30am and reached home at 2.30am
after plus minus what so ever, total would be 15 hours.

so happy to meet up with the gang, best gang ever
things never changed, the pattern, the way we talk. nope, not a single tip changed.
ok, maybe a little, but not much. lol
well, I love them to the max.
anticipating next gathering, more to come. =)
especially QM girl's birthday dinner. because we stress on it very the muchie.
what about a trip? but quite hard to plan, all of us didn't have the same sem break.
will see.

ok, I should start studying. ==

yish, wanted to post group photo, but with kexin
and that hiao kia flew to hong kong for vacation. ==
I'll just have to wait.
ciaoz peeps.

Birthday Celebration for TAB

2011-06-16T10:56:00.010+08:00

HI PEOPLE!

The Birthday Boy - TAN AIK BUAN

see that noob face. HAHA

and see how cute I was. LOL

LOL. I bet this would be the best celebration for him since he was born 19 years ago. haha
so far greatest I suppose?
GF, SNSD's Japan 1st album deluxe version, MP4,
what else? I don't know la.

anyway, countdown and celebrated his birthday in Milk.
though that night I was a little rough on some issues.
but overall I did enjoyed. seriously.
yet one thing to clarify, I'm not that into Milk compare to Mist.
well, it's alright but the thing was, clubbing in K-pop? *shakes head*
not as nice, I don't feel the hyper that was twice appeared in Mist.
clubbing with K-pop is just WRONG. LOL
english songs are much more appropriate
and excitement to dance will be always there.
kay whatever, I don't want to try k-pop already.

well, then on his birthday itself, we went YUEN steamboat.
I personally think that the food was standard,
except for the chicken, that is super tasty.
Lim Yan Jang keep saying YUEN's food doesn't taste nice.
== memang yim jim seng hei.
pattern banyak. LOL as usual we laughed a lot. blow water what. =)
haha had so much fun that night.
love them!!!

=) The five. nothing can break us apart? YA!

like mien said " you know i know why this post"

and right. yesterday I told my mum 4 of them and tiff

might be coming over my house for dinner on my birthday.

so here's the conversation.

me: blue colour

mum: red colour

mummy, can my friends come over our house for dinner on my birthday together with your friends as well?

oh sure, how many of them coming? I need to cook for them, extra dishes.

4 to 5? maybe ah boy also coming.

ah boy ah? ask him don't come la. later he tell ah ma this and that.

oh ok lo, so if lidat then my friends only. i confirm with you again. you cook 5 people la

ok. who's coming? yanjang? TEH AH BIN ah?

HAHAHAHAHAHA, ma, it's not TEH AH BIN, IT'S TAN AIK BUAN. and I call him TAB. not TEH AH BIN .

me my mum and my sis burst into laughters.

enough for TAB.
now Jay Chou, when do I get the chance to see Jay Chou?
super pissed, heard so many people saying they saw Jay Chou here and there.
let me list down the places I heard from the people

First was Mid Valley,
then Kajang,
After that SS2
day before yesterday, uniqlo / pavillion
yesterday, MID VALLEY.
so am dui ok? so nearby yet I don't get to see him. URGH!!!

enough said, the more I think the more I'm pissed.
I'll end the post with this photo.

lesson learnt :true frens go through everything.including changes - quoted from mien's twitter.

love her. =) BFF!

bye peeps.

satisfaction

2011-06-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

people who knows what i'm talking
yanjang, xingkun, zhennam, tab. on anot? LOL
tak on also ok one, but tonight memang not enough.
==

Song of the day.

2011-06-06T14:58:00.001+08:00

it's the original soundtrack of the movie Secret.
yes, the one by Jay Chou.
super like this. it reminds me of some thing every time I listen to it.

ya, BYE!

updates.

2011-06-06T14:54:00.000+08:00

for almost a week I abandoned my blog.
so busy with studies and attending some event as helper. $$

On Thursday, I worked at an event - Asia Success Award 2010/2011
this was the first time ever they conduct this event.
and this was the first time I joined this kind of event.
quite interesting you see, you get to dress up nais nais, lol.
this is one and only photo taken inside the ballroom.

TADA.

met new friends and saw many VIP. and VVIP lol not bad huh?
I'm thinking whether to be a freelancer. not bad aey? *might consider.
And I'm lazy to post rest of the photos.
so you might just wanna view it through my FB profile.

what else? nothing much.
All I know is I'm looking forward to AB's Birthday Bash at Milk this Saturday.
Imma wear the same dress as above. LOL dress up nais nais.
cause it's my buddy aka best friend aka hengdai 's birthday party.
why not dress up pretty? must leave one memorable 19 for all of us. =)
credits to my sista - eva, borrowed it from her. my so called twin sisters.
what about my birthday? let's just don't talk about it.
since it's always the same - nothing special.
don't get me wrong, not trying to be emo or what,
I don't put hope and expectations all these years.

Lastly, Imma be so stress up for the whole month
cause this week onwards
which is my new sem's week 5 until week 11
I have test every week, assignments and presentations.
have to work so hard for this sem.
yet I can't get my hands off the laptop. ==
yup, off to TAX. my first test!
toodles peeps, that's all for now.

show you guys my face first lol.

in case you've forgot how I look HAHA

BYE!!!

back to Song of The Day

2011-05-30T14:46:00.000+08:00

when was the last time I update about songs?
one month ago I suppose. ==
I was very lazy. I know.
well, this would be the song of the day.
haven't over with the PD one day trip fever. LOL

ALL TIME LOW - THE BEACH

Well, you're a long walk from my street
And I'm dying in this summer heat
I hope like hell you're waiting, waiting

Everybody's living like they're crazy in love
I'm a dizzy mess, and everything is so above me
From the floor of any life I lead today

Well, they can take, take, take the kids from the summer
But they'll never, never, never take the summer from me
It was the very first time that I lost my mind for a week
They can make, make, make me forget the weather
If we'll never, never, never wash the sand from my feet
It was the very last time that we said goodbye to the beach
Showing off, showing off our teeth

So make one last call back home
Cause tonight we go in alone
And I hope that you know I'm waiting, waiting
(Summer, do you feel me?)

Everybody's singing like they're crazy in love
We made a dizzy mess of everything and it was enough
So bring all the boys and all the girls together

Well, they can take, take, take the kids from the summer
But they'll never, never, never take the summer from me
It was the very first time that I lost my mind for a week
They can make, make, make me forget the weather
If we'll never, never, never wash the sand from my feet
It was the very last time that we said goodbye to the beach
Showing off, showing off our teeth

You're going out in style
And I'm getting tired of all your lying
(Summer, do you feel me?)
Stop pretending
Stop, the answer's in the smile
And I'm coming clean
(Summer, do you feel me?)
Just give me something
(Summer, do you feel me?)
Stop pretending

Well, they can take, take, take the kids from the summer
But they'll never, never, never take the summer from me
It was the very first time that I lost my mind for a week
They can make, make, make me forget the weather
If we'll never, never, never wash the sand from my feet
It was the very last time that we said goodbye to the beach
Showing off, showing off our teeth

PORT DICKSON?!

2011-05-30T14:06:00.005+08:00

yup, I went PD as a one day trip on Saturday. seriously, MAD fun!
we played water sports which included banana boat, doughnut and jetskii
finally, get to leave the city for one whole day.
depart from my house at 6.30am, ya I woke up at 5 am to pack my stuff.
super last minute. and it made me forget about everything.
like, surf shorts, sun block. I think that's it, but it was a disaster to me.
no sun block for the beach? HELL NO.
bought one instead, just to avoid being seriously tanned.
though now I am tanned, but least is not like dark skin. can die from being dark. ==

okay, well then, after fetching xingkun and moon lee
we were off to my grandma house to meet up my cousin
and pull off from there to PD
arrived at PD one hour later. =) fast I know.
boon, pamela, aik buan and nam went later around 11am.
skip all the details. what we did were basically just
water sports, beach activities, dinner and snap shot time. lol it was fun enough

what's most interesting was, I ride on the jetskii with aik buan instead of yan jang
yes, seems funny, and it was one great experience. You know why?
first, both of us, we the geminis COULDN'T SWIM.
YES, DON'T KNOW HOW TO SWIM.
yet both of us ride on the same jetskii. OK, nevermind
well, then. nam told aik buan to do some whatsoever trick it is. and GUESS WHAT?

I FELL OFF THE JETSKII IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEA!!!
YES, MIDDLE OF THE SEA.
one moment he was doing a turn, the other moment I fell off the jetskii, damn chun.
while I was searching for the beach, only then I realize it's so damn far from my spot.
and he was surprised that I didn't panic.
like duh, I cannot be panic at that particular moment.
because I had this feeling, if I panic I might DIE.
and ya, he made a big turn to get back to my spot.
LUCKILY, I manage to get back on the jetskii. *phew.
oh ya, and I got 2 cuts on my finger. hardly can hold my pen properly. ==
great experience indeed, it made me Laugh out loud whenever I thought of it. HAHA
lesson of the day: please learn how to swim.

overall, I had a great time with them. how can I say no to another trip?
will plan in future. *wink
well alright then, I'll let the photos to do the rest of the talking.

the one and only beach activity. FRISBEE. My FRISBEE LOL

Our spot. LOL.

four of us. =) mien didn't went.

view from the seafood restaurant, super nice.

group photo. LOL like this much.

and the retarded face of mine. yes, and I like retard looks nowadays.

for more photos, you can view it from facebook. =)

nam's album - https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150268989115832.376968.632340831

that's all for today.

toodles peeps.

SIFE

2011-05-25T16:41:00.000+08:00

Went for the Gen-Y Marketing meeting yesterday.
one word: Fun lol
SIFE isn't as boring as it seems. AND
TARC isn't that bad as well. People there DO speak english. LOL
and they speak fluently, SUPER.
wenxing, agree or not to? haha
looking forward to the project. *big smile* =D
we're about to make a magazine, and 4 of us joined for the editorial team.
hope 4 of us can make good job of it and make that magazine goes HOT.
because so weird 4 accounting students join for editorial. ==
*fingers cross, pray hard*

just a very quick update. nothing much to blog or update.
anticipating the day!!!
toodles. =)

fugly.

2011-05-23T16:30:00.001+08:00

what to post for today?
nothing special actually. like REALLY NUTHIN'
as usual, Monday 8am to 10am class.
yes, just one class and that's a rep for the day.

okay, there is one thing actually.
in fact, I was late for class for two consecutive school days.
Last Friday and TODAY.
screw MRR 2, accidents for these two days.
jammed for like 30 minutes? damn pissed.
and yet, there's 3 sow blocking my way,
memang blocking the earth from rotating
*originally in canton.*
bet most of you can get what does it mean. =)

totally screw up the day, SO Monday Blues ==
and, attend TAX lecture around 8.20am.
yes, that late. tsk tsk tsk. and c'mon, is TAX lecture!
luckily, she didn't taught a lot before I went into the hall.
So went in, and no notes AGAIN! super pissed!
really wanted to spam vulgar words to the course rep ady.
but then LUCKILY, 8.30am, the notes are here. Thank goodness.

what to do right now?
seems nothing better I can do, off to the notes.
becoming a nerd, with pimple break out, yellow tone face colour, black circle with specs.
I DON'T LOOK NICE AT ALL. RECENTLY.
TURNING INTO SOME FREAK FML.
AND IT'S UNACCEPTABLE.

I want my nice beautiful face back
no pimples, not yellow, no black circles.

fair and red cheeks. that's what I want
no more sleeping at or after 11pm.
like, I really must get to bed before 11pm.
(Y) yes, good job, will be.
go LYS. =)

hotties

2011-05-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

good looking guys ~~seldom~~ or I should say never end up with pretty/beautiful/hot/sexy girls
and good looking girls never end up with hot/cute/handsome guy
so, for the not so pretty girls and not so handsome guys
YOU GUYS SHOULD FEEL LUCKY.
so stop complaining about your cacat-ness.
cause 70% you'll end up with a hottie, either girl or guy. SAME THEORY!
good night!

random

2011-05-22T11:39:00.002+08:00

Well, I tweeted the other day that I bought a pair of Nike sneakers.

and now, the next sneaker I want is Converse.

and ya, we plan to buy the same pair. aint it sound cool to ya?

LOL *trying the black accent.

we even mentioned buying the same phone,

black and white blackberry bold, ki siao.

Why am I blogging? totally just because of randomness. yeap!

since I got nothing to do. the lecture notes are still incomplete. ==

I can't even study, or do my tutorials. CAN DIE.

knock knock, course rep and printing manager, are you guys doing your job?

because I feel like dying without notes with me,

couldn't concentrate during the lecture. YET

need to work 200% hard for this sem, cause I want 4.0 flat.

say I'm ki siao or kia su, whatever you like.

I DON'T CARE.

I just want to fulfill my very basic wish. -->

Good'to Results'to. *this is Japanese accent. LOL

see Donald Trump scolding? LOL

yesh, I wanna watch every single episode of

THE APPRENTICE. dang dang

YES! IMMA FINISH ALL OF IT.

and I wonder if there's computer game for The Apprentice?

Imma buy it for sure if it exist lol.

wait till I finish watching, herh herh,

welcome the new well-known business woman and accountant.

LAI YIN SAN

ok whatever, you can choose to ignore as I'm SSS-ing now.

toodles, random update indeed ==

2011-05-21T19:40:00.002+08:00

* Contains natural Hamamelis Extract and Brown Algae extract, e ffectively controls and isolates
pimples and blister.

* The comprehensive 7-in-1 functions include : removes cutin, regulates oily secretion, kills bacteria, anti-infl ammatory, tighten pores, heals and repairs, prevents pimple scars and marks .

*Suitable for pimples, oily and scars skin, day use and can be applied all over the face.

went to Herbaline for facial today, and the beautician recommended this.
the Herbaline Nano Pimple Cream. it's only RM88, need to have one of it.
sounds good to me, and everyone says so, many good feedbacks. why not have it then?
it's not that expensive also. it can be used as foundation and sunscreen as well.
so many functions, and it'll definitely give a good result.
the only thing I'm afraid is, I have to rely on it. sounds no good to rely on something.
nevermind still, I'll give it a try. =)
LOL, the thing here is, I'm so afraid to go out after every facial treatment.
because my face looks so reddish and supa ugly, like CAN DIE after seeing it.
one word: Horrible TTM.

okay let's stop that topic for now. speaking of yumcha.
yesterday went yum cha again. =D
shisha-ed, and I shisha-ed a lot. neh, thanks to Lim Yan Jang.
because he wanted to shisha, so he ordered it. and I took alot. == until I went dizzy.
but anyway, really need to thank him for ordering the shisha.
unload everything by exhaling the smoke. Nais~ felt so relief after that.
and what's most important is, we crapped A LOT! so funny until can ROFL.
and they said to plan Ipoh one day trip, so ON for that. LOL *planning. (Y)
SS said find one day drive down to Klang for Bak Kut Teh as brunch. SUPER ON!
ab and my birthday celebration might be at club for two consecutive weeks.
maybe Melaka one day trip also, why not Penang as well? perhaps Sepang.
Shiatz, so many places to go. == *choose one outstation only please*
but for sure I'll go all of it,some other day, we have plenty of time!

you might think I'm crazy, but I'm not.
as a matter of fact, I can't sit still.

can't wait can't wait. LOL
toodle peeps.!

P/S: I love yum cha.

Bad Day

2011-05-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

I totally screw up my 3rd semester results. ==
I couldn't believe I got a B+ in my results. another ==
I was so nervous when waiting for the website to release the results.
and yet I have to act chill and cool,
or else people will see me as some kind of gone crazy woman.
farking stress, nervous, not good ok?
urgh, fine, what's fixed is fixed, done is done.
cannot do anything to change the fact.
I just have to pay so hard for this new semester, EVEN STRESS.
caused me a pimple in the middle of my forehead.
but like luckily, my front part hair manage to cover it, perfectly and naturally. LOL

what's more for today?
after today's class went Tropicana City Mall to watch a movie.
and it made my day lagi worse, because the movie, not nice.
what movie? planned to watch The Detective 2, unfortunately we missed the time
so end up watched Punished. == Imma kill the producer for this movie
to be frank, Waste Of Time and Money. don't watch in the the cinema, just download it.
for Buddha sake. I thought it's related to like Buddhism Dharma lesson stuff
the Chinese title for the movie sounds related to Karma
seems interesting to me at first based on the movie title but ==, 2 words ZA DOU!
and it's all about revenge, human act type of revenge. and it's kinda bored.
nothing to do with Buddhism. Imma say this very rudely, lan you fo fa.(act as if there is Buddhism) ==
ok whatever end of topic bad experience.

oh ya, went to look for Nams. since I feel like seeing him
drove all the way to Jaya One
SAW HIS FACE ATE SOME FOOD
then I went home. HAHA
and it slightly lighted up my day. =)

As for tomorrow, they came up with a clubbing event for Kokway.
I'll get upset when they're going for clubbing but I didn't get to.
I wanna have fun tomorrow and it's Kokway's Farewell
despite the fact that I really wish to go, I still have to find ways to convince my mum.
so speaking of that part, I was tired and lazy to think of so many lies.
end up, I decided NOT TO GO, T.T sadness.
and I think mien will think the same as me. confirm I guess? lol
It's alright, plenty of chances.

Anyway, I wanna try K-pop Saturday night in Milk, I'll be super excited!
who's on for that? can plan it slowly. maybe one week time is enough? LOL
omg, I sound like I'm addicted to clubbing, Well, I'm NOT!
Try new things what, if I don't try now, tak kan I wait until I'm 30 only try right? lol

oopps, alright, I should get to bed now, it's 2240 now.
good night peeps, stay tune for more. =)

P/S: kindly click on the nuffnang ad every time you visit. Thank You.

2011-05-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

New sem started yesterday. but I didn't went for Tax lecture, replacing it tomorrow.
For today, was management accounting fundamentals. quite interesting.
but I can sense it's gonna get more confusing for the next 13 weeks.
challenging sem indeed.

went for meeting as well, doing a fund raising and donation campaign again.
and just now, I got added to the Gen-Y marketing group, aim of project is to help student obtain more information on purchase decision by creating a magazine that will be distributed around my college area.
sounds like a huge project. omg, Imma be so busy for this sem, if I really contribute. HAHA
but it sounds cool, don't you think? lol wenxing same group with me! hehe

anyway
gotta go to bed now.
tomorrow class at 8am.
gotta get up freaking early, 6am ==
good night peeps.

Birthday CelebrationS.

2011-04-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my cousin's birthday
Today is Yee Min's and Boon's birthday

Last night, went to Garibaldi Bangsar to celebrate SS's and Boon's
all we did were just drinking, and the guys went drunk. as usual
I have to take care of them some more. Just so you know, it aint an easy job.
but overall was fun. Lol

Today, celebrated Yee Min's at Sunway Pyramid Bubba Gump Shrimp.
haha. fun as usual. was quite special also. waiters cheered some special thing for her, damn nice.
lol, we have the video and photos of it. so damn cool.
miss the old days. where we spent our time together everyday.

waiting photos to be uploaded.
last night one was crazy, today one was beauty HAHA
ok. night peeps. had 2 great celebrations.

Song of the Day

2011-04-26T23:33:00.002+08:00

though this song was so long ago. but it's super nice
next time sing k must sing this!!!

Contact lenses

2011-04-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

've been so obsessed with contact lenses recently
went online just to search for every type of contact lens.
I like few of these.

I've been looking for this for centuries.

couldn't find it in Malaysia.

I heard Singapore has this.

Can anyone get it for me?

couldn't find the colour sample for this

but what I heard is

lilac purple is quite stunning.

want it badly. T.T

wearing this recently.

like it much.

comfortable yet it makes your pupil larger

need few stacks for this.

as for this. I've tried sterling grey

quite nice on me, consider of buying this again

and another colour, Amethyst.

lots of option for this though.

here are the colour samples.

wanna try all the colours actually. LOL

I don't have the courage to try on GEO ady.

it actually irritates my eyes and it aint comfortable.

and it get dries easily. and when it get dries, I see everything blurred.

seriously hate that brand, and it's like some kind of unsafe product

I'll never try that again

and as a good girl, I should listen to my aunt's advice.

she knows everything about eye wear.

she asked me not to wear it, it isn't safe for the eyes.

I'm only gonna buy well-known brands.

tell me when you guys can buy me the maxi eye spectroflex.

the one that I want is exactly same as the picture above.

thank you!

K-POP

2011-04-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

after so many days of depression.
I'm back to the cheerful me again!
so what I did these days was, checking back the news that allkpop posted.
meaning, I've been updating myself about the Korean entertainment. LOL
finally I have the time to be the K-pop Fan again. haha
recruit a lot of new korean songs.
watched dream high
watched we got married. khuntoria only, yongseo will be next.
and all the k-pop news. so happy right now.
finding back the happiness I used to have. *wink.
that's all for this post, back to my korean news hunting.

Song of the day.

2011-04-16T16:53:00.000+08:00

"Yesterday's Feelings"

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops

Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind

Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
'Cause feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time (all be lost in time)
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
for today is on my mind
yeah today is on my mind

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

2011-04-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

not much mood though. things happened just too randomly.
you on off a light, or any electronic devices is easy
you on off some function is kinda big deal
but anyway, everything settled.

the thing is now, are they able to get over what happened last night.
I know some can and did, what matters now whether you can or not.
more over we're best friends, only best friends tell you the truth right?
one big family right? don't let small matters break up our strong bond.

I hope the next time they see each other, they won't care about what happened last night
and also as a wise human being, we should judge based on incident but not the person
since he can get over it already, what's still bothering us from being good friends?
since he doesn't care anymore, why do we still wanna persist on that incident?
no one's fault actually, just not well organized. people can improve.
we are human beings, we did mistakes, and learn from mistakes.
take it as an exhortation,

let bygone be bygone.
shouldn't keep unhappy stuff in our mind and heart.
that's a suffering to do.
shouldn't let this unhappy stuff bothering us from moving on.
though sounds childish, remains as best friends still after shaking your hand.
since we don't do it physically, knew it by heart is so damn alright already.
so cheer up, big smile, and move on
who knows after some time, we'll laugh like hell thinking back about this incident
and we screw each other by kidding . haha
ciaoz peeps!

Dream High

2011-04-15T09:33:00.000+08:00

totally addicted to this Korean Drama series.
somehow, it's kinda heartache watching this series even though it's only until EP 5
that's because is about an art school and students who wants to be a star
and it really made me regret for stopping dancing.
I hope everything's not too late to be done
I wanna learn back dancing, I wanna go for things that I like.
at least I have something that I'm really good at, a skill that people will know.
I think dancing is the only thing I'm perfect in?
I hope so, looking forward, searching for a dance studio.
Dream High! lol

Song of the Day

2011-04-14T10:21:00.000+08:00

it's time for song of the day. *wink

the music video is quite interesting though a bit long and I didn't really understand what kind of message that they wanted to deliver to the viewers, but anyway enjoy.

this is the audio version, if you don''t wish to watch the music video. here you go.

and here would be the lyrics for the song.

He's a stranger to some
And a vision to none
He can never get enough,
Get enough of the one

For a fortune he'd quit
But it's hard to admit
How it ends and begins
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
From yesterday, it's coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't want to read the message here

On a mountain he sits, not of gold but of shit
through the blood he can look, see the life that he took
From council of one
He'll decide when he's done with the innocent

On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)

From yesterday, it's coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't want to read the message
He doesn't want to read the message
Doesn't want to read the message here

On his face is a map of the world

From yesterday, it's coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't want to read the message here
From yesterday,
From yesterday,
From yesterday, the fear
From yesterday,
From yesterday
But he doesn't want to read the message
But he doesn't want to read the message
But he doesn't want to read the message here

2011-04-13T18:18:00.000+08:00

like so finally, I'm having my sem break now. HAHA sweet!
didn't manage to post SONG OF THE DAY for yesterday
one of the reason is exam at 2 to 4 which in turn making me study in the morning
second would be hang out at night after exam
so obviously I did't had the time to get some time for blogging or whatever it is. lol
so many plans going on for sem break.
mum and dad's gonna screw me like never before
well, i'll try to control myself anyway

But, movie on Friday is a must. anticipating the movie on Friday.
heard quite many good feedbacks on the movie, hope everything goes smooth.
thinking whether I should out for the whole day or just for movie and jom balik rumah?
let's just be random and spontaneous. don't think too much
not good for the brain nerves. lol

Actually right, I can't wait for the new sem to start
I'm crazy I know you think, why am I feeling so?
because it's all accounting subject haha.
can't wait to face those challenges that I'll be going through.
me like challenges, end of topic. lol

anyway, feel free to look for me my friends! provided I'm available. haha
bye peeps. down to movie time.

Song of the day.

2011-04-11T11:07:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's my last paper for the finals. wish me luck.
and now here's the song of the day.

All That I've Got by The Used

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
Yeah, It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine today. and get the best in my finals for OHR. haha oh yeah!

2011-04-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

Imma post a song to my blog everyday and make it song of the day for myself.
wait for it. LOL

Song of the day.

2011-04-10T19:53:00.001+08:00

Walking out the door this morning wondering
What it is that's going on with you
Thinking of a way to say I'm sorry
For something that I'm not sure I do
Sure I do
So come on baby let me in and show me what this really is cause

Something must have made you say that
What did I do to make you say that to me
Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me

Hoping for a moment that I turn around
And you'll be coming after me
Cause all that I can say is that it's obvious
It's obvious you're all I see
All I see
So come on baby let me in
And show me what this really is about
Cause I can't read you
Come on baby let me in
And show me what this really is cause

Something must have made you say that
What did I do to make you say that to me
Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me
Come back to me

And I'll be here in the morning if you say stay
If you say stay to me
And I'll be here in the morning if you say stay
If you say stay to me
And I'll be here in the morning if you say stay
If you say stay to me

Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me
Something must have made you say that
What can I do to make you say come back to me
Something must have made you so mad
What can I do to make you say come back to me

2011-04-10T19:43:00.001+08:00

I just woke up from my afternoon nap due to the severe headache I had just now.

slept from 3.30pm until 7pm. total 3 and a half hours.

like so shit, I sound and look like a pig. Because I don't take long hours sleep.

especially afternoon nap. broke my own record.

having finals for Organisation Human Resources on Tuesday

and I didn't even study for it for the pass few days, call me a lazy bumb or a procrastinator.

On Thursday, I'd watched "Just Go With It". It was awesome, one worth watching movie. because it's funny. and it's a romance comedy movie. I love romance comedy. totally into it.
and I had this pao call Lao Sha Pao. oh gawd, taste super delicious. Yum Yum
I wanna eat it again.

Well, on Friday, wtf. spend my day hanging out.

First stop at KLCC with sis
after she went back, I was all alone in KLCC.
spotted few that I super like at Zara, MNG, and TopShop.
But, no money on hand, so it's a window shopping *heartache*
bought a book in Kinokuniya as well, while waiting for the guys to get their ass to KLCC.
after they arrived, I shopped AGAIN. sien man.

THEN,
Second stop, dinner at Soong Kee KL.
Third stop, Pool Centre at Kuchai Lama. these guys never get tired.
Fourth stop, ABC yumcha and shisha-ed.
Last stop, home sweet home. midnight baru sampai rumah.

Saturday? nothing special.

At The Beginning

2011-04-07T16:03:00.001+08:00

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whenthe storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

(chorus)

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

P/S: love this song to the max. and the blue night gown appears at 00.34, lol. awesome nice. haha

2011-04-07T14:12:00.000+08:00

new blog post. *wink
left one more paper to go. Organisation Human Resources.
the only paper for this sem
that I have to repeat it reading it again and again.
Because it's so important. and it ain't easy.

Recently, I'm so obsessed with the iPhone monopoly game.
LOL bit up the computer twice already.
Mad happy right now. I won 24 K U.S dollars for the second match ok? LOL
hahahahahahahahahha
gone crazy. HAHA

and seriously, I need to be on diet.
First thing to do, exercise!
second, cut down the amount of food.
third, sleep early.
fourth, take liquid diet *most important*
OK. plan on, and off to diet plan.
bye peeps.

RB is worse than JB

2011-04-04T16:40:00.001+08:00

I seriously got to blog about this
've been hearing people discussing about some new girl named Rebecca Black
my gawd, seriously, does she has nothing better to do?
she aint pretty
her voice aint nice at all
and her Friday song totally ruin my Friday

and the thing is, everybody's like loving the song
what so nice about that song anyway?
that's one lamest retard song I ever heard.
her voice sounds freaking annoying.
feel like punching someone now. URGH!

and guess what, I find Justin Bieber better than her.
turning my hatred into neutral already.
I don't hate Justin Bieber anymore, thanks to Rebecca Black. *so lovely, fake smile*
Justin Bieber, you rock it than Rebecca Black. (I mean it)

2011-04-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

I remember I kept on tweeting about I don't get to go Mist Club on 31st of March.
and was so frustrated about that, and guess what?
LOL. really damn LOL in the end I went. Mist club 2nd anniversary Cool As Twice
well, clubbing with my brother wasn't that awkward as I thought it will be.
Because both of us had our own fun, we didn't take care of each other.
and of course big thanks to TAB. he was the one who get us into the guest list. VIP (it will always be)
At first, Mien wanted to follow, but her parents called. so, next time la.
but, Tiffany went so no worries. had a great night indeed.

p/s: wanna try MOS, but TAB don't know any ambassador there. *hmmm?

Thunder

2011-03-30T19:06:00.004+08:00

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

p/s: It's gonna light up every girl's heart if some one sing this to them. its every girl's wish.

2011-03-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

I couldn't believe I just blogged 10 posts in 3 months. I'm such a lazy blogger.
good news. my mummy's going overseas in the month of April. hahahahaha
who's up for trip or clubbing or whatsoever hang outs?
cause I'm on for it while she's not around. *evil grins
But, finals coming as well. hope it won't crash exactly that week. *cross fingers
feel like posting some random photos. but do I have any of those? lol
*searching through the files

lol. miss high school so much.
but life has to goes on.
you don't improve if you live in the past.
but seriously, new generation thinks graduation is nothing.
because in this new era, phones, cars, social networks exist.
that photo reminds me of mien's laughers during high school. haha
her nickname was laughing machine.
perhaps it is still her nickname. hahahaha
need hang outs. lol movies!!!!

I'm so out of track lately. Korea latest updates, I know nothing. empty.
been very busy after since third sem commenced. so pek cek.
study and outings fully occupy my time. no extra time for me to check out the latest news.
feel so outdated. for the first time.
have to chase back all the news about Korea during sem break.
off to assignments. toodles.

I turn to you.

2011-03-21T20:01:00.000+08:00

When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way, when I'm scared losing ground
When my world is going crazy you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
[. From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/christina-aguilera-lyrics/i-turn-to-you-lyrics.html .]
Giving me faith taking me through the night

For a shield, from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong and for the will to carry on
For everything you do I turn to you yeah

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change for someone to lean on
But for a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who I can run to oh I turn to you

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

definition of...

2011-03-21T00:43:00.000+08:00

Know what is douchebag? know what is Sohai? know what it FMLTTM?
I'm telling you
you won't really know what it means.
until you

Did the same thing I did just now.
toodles peeps.

2011-03-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

Alright, I admit I'm one lazy blogger. like totally.

couldn't stick my ass on something everyday just to blog.

what to blog for the day?

oooo. my phone. Shit, so shity.

my screen got scratched until I couldn't accept the face that my screen got scratched.

I don't like seeing something through blurr surface.

I want a new phone la. it doesn't has to be an Iphone, an andriod phone will do actually.

but my parents won't allow me to do so as I'm using the phone up to a year only.

exception when my phone is totally in malfunction condition.

Iphone ah Iphone, or Blackberry ah Blackberry
when will you come to me?
I want you badly. *douche face*

2011-03-14T08:18:00.000+08:00

totally get it why people won't get sick of clubbing.
wanna know why?
get your ass up to club and try it for yourself. =)
and I might be one of those people.

2011-03-02T09:56:00.001+08:00

haven't been posting about Singapore trip yet.
what I can tell you in short is, Singapore is awesome!
it's like from heaven to hell once I came back to Malaysia.
wanna know more? Go Singapore yourself !!! I'm going again for sure.
and the next time I go, I'm so gonna buy the I <3 SG t-shirt.
*winks

Alright, I started my Sem 3 on Valentine's Day. How sweet.
there's this subject call Organisation Human Resources. same person for my lecturer and tutor.
Fuiyoh, I tell you, she's one epic woman, she's so good in talking crap, no kidding.
Is it necessary to give some super lame examples during lectures and tutorials?
you're wasting our time alright lecturer as well as tutor?
and she would stone there for few second silently
thinking some lame examples to be given to us later.
whatever. don't spoil mood.

Speaking of Super Junior, they're coming to Malaysia for Super Show 3.
But I'm not going this time, how saddening.
No choice la, SNSD coming, have to save money for their concert.
since I went for Super Show 2 ady, and I heard they'll be having Super Show 4, IT's ALRIGHT.

Been having some issues with mummy lately.
don't know why this is happening to me, I once thought I had a quite perfect life.
nothing to be worried at all and having a happy family.
Well, it seems that things turned out the other way round.
She's been very controlling lately, every outings she'll give me the annoying face.
and it really made me feel so fucked up. I don't like being control. That's the way I am.
maybe it's because of my body condition also. hope 1 month of no outings with friends
things will go back to normal.
and I'm scared she'll find out something about me.
I'll just skip all the outings, all the yum cha sessions. and Stone at home. so she won't even start suspecting me
God, please bless me.
I thank you for all the blessings. I really do.

Vacation

2011-02-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

heading to Singapore tomorrow.
right early in the morning 6am. SHO early.
coming back on Wednesday.
so peeps. remember to miss me every single second haha
ss-ing again.
must take lotsa photos. I'll miss you guys hahaha
bye!

2011-02-03T23:33:00.002+08:00

mad boring now. I have nothing to do. Seriously nothing!
I rather there's guest in the living room than doing nothing.
Actually there is la, but it's them, make no difference at all.
I love CNY but it really is boring when the older I get, screw it.
and this year's CNY is exceptionally quiet. *
except the fact that the road is totally clear and the traffic is super smooth
which totally defines CNY in KL. totally true. don't believe can ask your KL friends. lol
I cannot imagine myself giving ang paus in ten years time.
10 years are not consider slow nor fast.
but it just seems so horrible to face the after 10 years me.
*heart screaming

urghwhateverseriouslytodayisboring!
i'm a lamer. FYI

2011-01-31T20:22:00.000+08:00

First, the rain.
the rain hasn't stop for more than 24 hours.
but it is for now.
rainy day before CNY? lol hm, seldom seen.
CNY used to be hot and sunny every single year.
and 2011 is the only exception lol.

Second, Jess Lee
Undeniably, Jess Lee rocked the One Million Star yesterday.
The winner of the 7th season OMS. A Malaysian. rockin' isn't it? lol
totally anticipate her debut album. it's gotta be fascinating.

*probably everyone is talking over the rain and Jess Lee

Suni came my house yesterday to bake cheese cake for somebody.
homemade cake always doesn't has the good-looking image.
so it's normal to has a few flaws but I bet it's delicious, waiting for her message.
she's full of happiness hahahahahaha
so happy for her.

oh, anyway peeps.
have a great CNY.
Happy Chinese New Year!

2011-01-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

I couldn't hold out the boredom I'm going through everyday.
I need outings. but CNY coming soon meaning, cleaning up the house.
this is so wrong timing.
One thing I hate about my coll is.
They always plan the sem break together with the festive season.
and this is totally sucksballs and sucktard.
and the worst part would be, non of my friends are having sem break like me.
totally sucker = my coll.
ya. FML. that says it all.

gah, nvm. going yum cha later.
don't care too much for now.
toodles peeps.

NEW YEAR AND GENTING

2011-01-03T10:46:00.001+08:00

hey peeps! I'm back from Genting.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! it's 2011!!!

Best new year countdown I ever had, spend it with the buddies, at The Curve and Puncak Kiara.
nice view. few fireworks at a time. cool.
First day of 2011 went to Genting with the buddies
fireworks as well, that was super nice. no doubt!
don't feel like coming back ya know. wish I could stay with them. as long as possible.
it's so cool to spend new year with your buddies aka loved ones. lol
Love them to the max, they're just so loving and most importantly, they always make me laugh non-stop.
awaiting our next gathering.

new year eve. 2011 <3

me and mien! love her max!

D five, without AB. gah, miss him la.

Genting!

2010-12-16T16:12:00.000+08:00

Currently at Da Zhi, Teenarger Camp. lol
shouldn't be going online though.
but couldn't resist the urge to blog lol.

Okay, Busy like hell, Tired like hell, working like hell, studying like hell.
So many things to be done in my list.
ya. I have to go back to work now lol.
just a very simple update,
bye peeps

2010-12-08T22:51:00.000+08:00

ya. I should blog ALready.
Guess what? went to The Gardens redbox to cheong k.
With who?
Yan jang, xingkun, and TAB. lol. so random

the plan was suppose to be watching a movie.
and we went to GSC found out there's nothing else we wanna watch.
So, we went to kareoke just like that.
it was fun. but that 3 fellas were singing quite a lot of emo songs.
and, while singing Wedding Dress, TING Xingkun and Lim Yan Jang
dance cover to the song. LOL!

Yesterday had yum cha session with them as well
We were talking about the things we used to do.
and think back deeply, We did quite a lot of stupid and unexpected things
compare to other people's high school life.
but who cares? we enjoyed it and we will enjoy it again in the future. lol!
I won't say forever ever again. because in this universe there's no forever. lol
ya so good night people. just a simple update about them.

see you guys are so important to me!

2010-12-02T14:53:00.001+08:00

just took my macro coursework 2 and I totally screwed it up. for the first time I lost at least 5 marks in a test. It may sound kiasu, but seriously its really heartbreaking when you're trying to achieve something but end up you failed in achieving it. Because what I'm trying to achieve now is not just a particular good result, I'm aiming high, in order to get a scholarship for my advanced diploma, in that case I can lessen my parent's burden, and we could use the money to spend on other stuffs. Maybe not 4.0 again but give me at least a 3.85 for my 2nd semester. ok, range from 3.85 to 4.0 for every semester of my whole diploma course. But I shouldn't give high hopes cause it will only turn out to be a disappointment. Ya, so, I just hope for the best in everything. just let it be, and study hard for my every semester's final. FIGHTING!

2010-11-25T18:05:00.001+08:00

you're not the only one who has assignments ok?
my things-to-do are much than yours.
so don't say you have lots of things undone.
because I have much more things undone compare to you.

FYL

2010-11-24T12:08:00.000+08:00

TIRED.
assignments are normal
but it's also tiring enough.

Now, it's not only the "assignments"
it's the camp
it's the SIFE
it's the Co-curricular day
4 combos at a time.
too many functions at a time.

the thing that bothers me the most will be the co-curricular day.
will be held on the 18th of December
but I'm going up to Fraser hill on the 17th until 19th
so what should I do?

if I don't go the Co-curricular day, I might fail and have to pay a repeat fee amount to RM160!
what kind of college is this? this is all bullshits.
I didn't knew events could crashed in this way.
I promised to go Fraser hill before I know the date of the competition.
and the Bohnyface told me if I don't go he'll fail me.
what bullshits is he talking?
I didn't choose not to go ok?
it's just I joined the camp first, settled everything,
and then only I know the date of the co-curricular day.

I don't wanna fail my Co-curricular, it's not about the money.
It's about the golden time that I have to face next year.
so many subjects have to take. I don't have the time to do other stuffs.
this is so freaking tired.
but I still have one more hope
I will talk to him and explain my situation.

So, guan yin pu sa. please let me pass my co-curricular without going the competition and get to go fraser hill as well.
PLEASEEE!!!

TELL ME!

2010-11-22T00:31:00.002+08:00

I wonder why every time I text mien. she'll reply me the first or two messages.
after I send the third or second message, she'll never reply me.
starting to get sick of it, put so much expectations on her replies, but didn't have it.
saw her texting with her college mate - ric,once, texting non-stop.
I was like., what? what am I? ya What not Who.
wanted to ask her every time, but didn't get the chance.
because once we start chatting I'll be busy talking on other exciting topics.
now she offline, replied her message ady, but I think she won't reply me.
ya, so, fine. never mind.

mien, once you see this, tell me why. TELL me why,
tell me, tell me, te te te tell me. lol.
*tell me by wonder girls*
remember ah. tell me!

2010-11-16T20:11:00.001+08:00

have to go Da zhi later.
and mummy bought a Shu uemura eye lashes curler for my sis LOL!
whatever.

I suddenly have the urge to do many things.
First - go genting
Second - go CHS - QM room
Third - hang out with friends
3 main things currently.

I have no idea why I feel so.
whatever it is, I just wanna make it happen.

I don't think she care already
in that case,
SO should I.
whatever, if she give up I give up as well.

as you could see I've said 3 times whatever, so random
I feel so whatever now, means no feelings.
I'd frozen.
*kock kock* break into pieces.
Toodles peeps

regretness. forgiveness. disappointment.

2010-11-15T13:28:00.002+08:00

If you wanna turn the whole thing up and down again

I cannot do anything.

If you're regretting what you did and what you promised that day,
no one can stop you from your feelings,
go ahead and felt the regretness
and as well as I'm sorry,
because we couldn't put into practice as well.

and forgive us that things aren't changing the way we expected.

Apparently, we all made things up side down.

maybe we did that, but I don't think we started that.

and right now

I won't give a damn on that stupid bastard issue anymore.

I give up on you, there's nothing else more I can say.

maybe this is the last time we do things together.

because every time you do things, you're trying to show that you're the strongest.

being very special, to be exact, to show off.

I don't understand why you have to act that way every time you're given an opportunity.

and you'll say :

"I just wanna appreciate the opportunity given and wanna learn more from that."
that aint wrong BUT!

you don't have to be so arrogant, and "sharing" people's work.
some how people will feel that they are worthless.
then, lack of confidence, then don't feel like going.
WHY?

anyway, that's my point of view,
as for yourself,
I don't have any idea on what are you trying to do.
So I should just put a stop on that,
not hoping any change from you.
got numb of the way you are.

I know I was rude at the previous post, I apologize for that.
not giving any excuses, obviously I was very furious.
this issue always existed, but we're trying to run away from the fact in the past. like always!
we always tell each other, after function you'll be back to normal.
but think deeper, there's too many functions,
and everytime you get worse and even step on people's head just to avoid the crowded place
that's way too over people's line. this problem continues for years.
and now I wanna step out and end this stupid bastard issue.
because I couldn't bare with it anymore. I wanna put a full stop.
It doesn't mean that I wanna end this friendship,
I just wanna have a friendship with no inner war.
Chances are always given to you, I don't know whether you appreciate it or not.
maybe you've tried but you couldn't change.
the words in red colour are bullshits.
people will change and can change. they won't stop in the only spot.
we move forward everyday. every hour, every minute, every second.

for what I said in the above
"I don't give a damn, I give up on you,"
I don't really wanna do that as well.
so for your goodness sake,
don't be so arrogant in front of people
don't make some one delightful just because you wanna be the top.
don't seek attention from people. it makes people puke, sometimes.
don't blame on us if we do anything wrong during functions, but you step aside as if it's non of your business
don't take all the merit that was suppose belongs to all of us
*it's like you're trying to give them a bad impression of us*
the merits are unimportant to me, I don't give the shit of the merits
but the impression worth a thousand million dollars ok?

SO,
I'm giving you another time to be a better you
and at the same I'm giving myself another time to be a better me as well.
don't repeat it in the future.
I hope this is the last time that we will say
"last chance"

I hope this because I don't want this issue to pop out in the future.
meaning no more backstabbing and writing such post in the blog to tell each other.
Yes, last chance, if you missed it, or you take it but you broke it someday.
by then, I seriously got nothing to say, and don't want to bother already.
till then

BEST OF LUCK!

2010-11-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

Seriously, when it comes to doing stuff.
I hate you like hell!
like super hate!
in fact sometimes I hate you as well.

so here it goes
don't act you're special and better than us. You're nothing ok?
don't act your the best among us.
don't act you have the brain but we don't
don't act like you know everything
don't act like you're smart
don't act like you're pretty
don't act like you're great
don't act like you're the precious one
I'll GIVE YOU TWO WORDS!

FUCK YOU!!!!!

no. should be 3 words.

FUCK YOU BITCH!!!!

I'm not trying to be violent or being rude.
you guys won't know how I feel now.
because that person I was talking about
is a one big sohai! trust me, you won't wanna get to know that person.
because you'll find out that person
is a person who would backstab you just to get what they want, and what they want to achieve.
so beware of that person.

If I get the chance.
I would slap that person until
his/her mother couldn't recognize them.
and get in a fight with them.
and end our friendship once and for all.
like seriously lo. really sohai one lo that person.
my gosh, I really am so pissed off right now.

I CANNOT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT THIS PERSON IS SO FAKE
I CANNOT SEE WHY SHE HAVE TO BE SO FAKE
I CANNOT TELL WHAT THIS PERSON REALLY WANT TO BE SO FAKE
GAH! I'M SO PISSED NOW!!!

REALLY WANNA SLAP HER AND BUZZ OUT THE THINGS THAT I WANT TO TELL.
BETTER YET, QUARREL WITH THAT PERSON, AND FAN MIN!
FUCK THAT SOHAI BITCH! ARGH!!!!

2010-11-10T17:23:00.000+08:00

last post was 5 days ago.
was at Da zhi for the past few days, didn't get the chance to online also
too busy. good for me lo, i always wanted to be a busy woman.

I went UNIQLO today. bought a pair of jeans and a jacket. super like it.
I think I could only update till here.
got to finish my work and buzz to Da zhi later.
I'm a busy woman haha.
you got that!

2010-11-05T22:32:00.001+08:00

so many days didn't update.
so busy with camp lately. online pun takda masa.
used to online everyday but have to quit that habit already
body got heated up, too hot already
made my eyes gone red for the past few days.

about the camp. wonder how to settle up everything
have to go college, have to go temple cause of camp,
have to think of mien's birthday, have to prepare for mid-term test. hell busy.
teenage camp going fraser hill, bet I have to bring my notes along with me
cause by that time is week 12, meaning final is around the corner by the time.

and the weather today was much more like an oven than a weather.
SO HOT YOU KNOW!
and the sun light, it's like it can burn up my skin.
imagine how hot it is.
stay at Da Zhi for the whole day
I'm the only one among sista who went, bet they either were lazy or busy.

just now wanna find mien chat one,
but I think she's busy with her assignments and stuff la
don't wanna kacau her. I will sorry if I disturb her.

oh and the UNIQLO how come every body went to q for few hours just to for the opening?
I read newspaper, it was mentioned that the sale until 18th of November lo
why everyone have to go on the opening day leh? I memang tak faham lo.
whatever la, I'm going on coming Wednesday anyway.

got my Macro test 1 result, no full marks this time.
a bit disappointed of myself, shouldn't had change the answer
if not I get full marks already.
but whatever la, just let it be la. try my best will do.
next time have to work harder and do not put so much expectation on yourself.
ya, should tell myself about that often. don't get too stress. *wink! haha

got to get to bed now. 10.32pm already.
tomorrow need to go Da Zhi some more.
good night peeps

2010-10-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

you know what?
I super love how my blog looks like now.
because it's SNSD HOOT as header. they look super hot right? haha
I know. Big fan of SNSD
whatever, need to sleep now

my Suni hhaa =]

2010-10-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

had a chat with my babe SUNI haha
super happy now.
the emo me born yesterday has just fade away haha
it's back to the happy me
thanks my babe for chit chatting with me.
made me feel much more better. lol
LOVE HER TO THE MAX
I want a group call with meiying and suni haha
miss suni badly, seriously.

XOXO

SNSD - HOOT Music Bank 102910

2010-10-29T18:35:00.000+08:00

totally awesome you know? haha

watch it on ASTRO KBS WORLD just now

so freaking happy haha.

those who aren't a fan of their

maybe you'll like them after this haha

hope you will!

SNSD hoot mini album DAEBAK! FIGHTING!

2010-10-28T23:24:00.002+08:00

now only I found out that I'm always lonely.
I don't get people's concern.
most of them are the one I care most.
some one has too many assignments but I don't dare to voice out
some one is in a relationship now, I don't want to interrupt them
some one has an admirer, totally have those relationship feel, which doesn't need me anymore
some one has exam to go, I should not talk
some one is doing slide show, I should leave her alone
as for the others? I don't know. I don't have a clue about it.

As for me, what I used to do when no one talks to me is listen to song
and watch drama and search for songs
always alone while others are busy with their stuff

when I feel boring, no one will be there to entertain me
when I feel boring, what I do is listen to KPOP songs
when I feel boring, I will watch music video
no matter how boring I am, I don't think they know
even though they know, they would just ignore me
and go on with their topics. which didn't really clear the boredom inside me

why am I being so emo again?
gah, what am I turning into?
some emo freak? I don't want to be one of them
I'm a optimistic person. I am, I know I am.
but I couldn't control myself from not being emo. such a freak.
whatever. I don't wanna care how people think about this.
ya, maybe I was meant to be alone, so maybe you guys should just leave me alone.

I thought you will check my blog everyday like how I check yours, it won't take you more than an hour to read it. even if it take you for one minute only I feel glad about that, but I guess you won't have the time to do so. don't know why I type this also, as if you really will read what I post here

HOOT!

2010-10-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

haha This is HOOT by SNSD which is like so HOT! including my siwon haha

here you go!

One more to go

2010-10-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

I submitted my Fundamental of Accounting's assignment on Monday
I did my English for Communication presentation on Tuesday
happy enough! felt so relief after I did the presentation yesterday.

So, I just have one more to go.
Macroeconomics test on Thursday which is tomorrow
I should be studying now actually, but I just feel like blogging.
I'll study tonight.

oh ya, I cried on Sunday
I still remember it haha sounds stupid though
I cried because I miss my high school days
I miss the days where we can talk like nobody's business
big bunch of friends
know almost all the students of your form. ain't it cool?
with all the QM duties, the canteen food.
that was those days.
I read all the post of last year. that's why suddenly it burst out.

I just miss high school.
The fun and
The moments
lol. High school was the brightest in my life, currently hahahaha
ya, so true, undeniable.
wondering are my friends thinking the same way too?
hope so! toodles!

Die

2010-10-24T02:21:00.002+08:00

Living a life is like almost a mission impossible.
I'm so fed up, I even thought of transferring from TARC to Sunway
but I know my mum wouldn't let me to do so, so just forget about it.

Sometimes I regretted that I studied at TARC
because I couldn't be the old me in front of my college mates.
I don't get to say "deng", "spoiler", "don't ban yang pls".
and for goodness sake, I don't think my college mates have good sense of humor.
they don't joke how I used to joke in front of my QM kaki.
I didn't even get the chance to communicate with them in ENGLISH.
this sounds sucks ok? no English during college life? WTF! FML!
How? tell me what I should do?
I am not trying to discriminate them, but for serious, how can you not speak English?
this could kill me you know? sounds so shit.
and what they said are so superficial. Don't they know there'a big world outside?
luckily , nikki and wenxing aren't like them. for once I THANK GOD.

Sometimes I felt so relief that I studied at TARC
because I don't have to feel the peer-pressure
people in Sunway dresses nicely and with brands.
If I don't have a big amount of capital to invest it on clothes, I could die studying in Sunway.
Some more it's so near to Pyramid, I could broke easily.
and get fat easily because the land area is not as big as TARC.
and near to Pyramid, everyday go there eat those not nice but expensive food, some more it's fattening also.
MY GOD!

I feel contradictory. gish! really deng.
It's so hard for me to find some one who really speaks English in my college right now.
oh, yes I remember, the only hot guy in my lecture hall speaks fluent English.
but, I don't get to know him, because he's like so cool
and maybe he thinks girls from TARC are weird.

Life is so hard for me,
If I'm rich enough, I wouldn't be here sharing all the troubles.
I can buy whatever I want and do whatever I want.

No English during college life. EFFECT OF IT? SIMPLE!

GOT ROTTEN OR DIE!

saw that photo above?

*guess what?

He is the one

who will be in charge to....

kill me.

Nights people

2010-10-20T11:48:00.001+08:00

wondering whether to buy the Super Show 2 DVD or not.
in dilemma, officially. always in anyway. sigh, pathetic la me.
like those wu zhi shao nu. haha. but I don't care I'm enjoying it. haha
bye dudes.

2010-10-19T11:23:00.002+08:00

some people just get the opportunities that they wished for
but some people don't.
the do's and the don'ts

WELL I AM THE DON'TS

2010-10-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

Fuck My Life. worst day ever.
suppose to submit my presentation outline draft to my lecturer to do checking.
got all my details, ready to type, and the fucking asshole microsoft word wants me to enter a product key.
nevermind, I found the product key, finish entering.
this time even great, it shows "the key is invalid"
I was like what the fuck? how am I suppose to type my outline then?
this is so not good, so unlucky ok?
the day before to check my outline, and the microsoft word told me my product key is invalid.
unbelievable man. SHIT! damn pissed now. god damn it. GAH!!!!!!!

the ugliest person I ever met

2010-10-14T11:54:00.000+08:00

I suddenly see myself as an ugly girl
I don't know. When I look at my own picture and after that looking pictures of others, seriously I feel that I'm ugly no joke. my hair looks ugly my skin looks ugly my body looks ugly. everything in me is ugly. I didn't even want to look into the mirror. I really don't know why. gah! bang walls. I don't get to dress nicely like how people dress. I don't get to shop as much as I want like how people shop.

I admit I'm a little "kiasu"
I don't believe people who doesn't have a little bit of kiasu-ness deep inside their personality.
never mind, no one will read my blog also. so no matter how I rude or how emo I wrote, no one will know.
sigh. Lai Yin San, is a person who was once and always isolated by her friends. Don't ask me why I feel so, the feelings just came out of no where. Nobody likes the feeling of being isolated, but sometimes we just have to get used to it. life is morbid and we have to deal with the pain no matter where and when. FML.

When I see models, I wanna be like them. But I'm ugly.
no nice look, no nice legs, no nice body.
I think quite a number of people thinks I'm ugly and not good looking, they just don't tell it out. humans are like that. never tell the truth out to each other.
totally pissed and frustrated now.
I always feel that I'm the ugliest among my friends. yes. THE UGLIEST.
sigh, enough said, I have to get back to my tutorial questions and assignments. it's time for me to end the emo session. shall continue when I get back home. not in the blog. but alone in the room.

2010-10-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

Contact lenses are running out of stock. SHIT!
damn pissed now.
waiting for my aunt to re-stock it for me..

tons of assignment. GAH!
it's like I'm facing a mountain full with book you know. and everything has to be submitted on week 5.

first, my Fundamental of Accounting research paper on Inventories.
second, my individual presentation for English Communication.
third, my Macroeconomics coursework.

this is suffering. Haven't even start my report and presentation outline, I'm like so dead. so not cool you know? and today I slacked whole day in front of the labtop at my mum's office. all I did was facebook, twitter and pps. I did do a little research but after that I couldn't bare with the boredom and I went to watch dramas on PPS.

Week 3 is coming to an end but I am confident that I can do all the research by coming Sunday. FIGHTING!
Seriously need to work harder in sem 2. I'm proceeding to a different level of difficulties.
fingers crossed, wish me luck in everything!

Seriously envy those people who get scholarship and get the chance to proceed their studies at overseas.
they meet new environment, new friends, new culture. so cool!
Recently, I admire a girl who are younger than me.
she's studying in Singapore, rich girl, beautiful as well, have brains also.
she's not the dumb blonde type.
I think wenxing knows who am I talking about. /haha.
Seriously I wanna be like her wey, she's almost perfect. Just thinking being a perfect girl also feels awesome.
Hope I'll be like her one day and I hope is soon. haha

lol. I should go to sleep now. sudah 11.25pm.
nights people. I don't think anyone will read my blog also.
don't care. I'll be the people!

Gee Japanese Version. SNSD!
Love them to the max.

This is ME!

2010-10-13T22:46:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

This is ME! not all of them are true. but some? YES!
What about you? lol.

To know what yourself are. Just click! lol

Petition for reformation of MBOA for SS3 in Malaysia 2011

2010-10-11T19:22:00.002+08:00

Dear ELF,

as most of you guys already know, for SS2 in Malaysia, Super Junior fan-bases such as MYSJ, Sapphire Pearls Malaysia, ChocoFam, SJ Royal Noble, MYSG SJ Sapphire Blue Palace and Super Junior thread in Cari Forum has formed an alliance called Malaysia Blue Ocean Alliance (MBOA) for the purpose of uniting all Malaysian ELF on the concert day and to make the day as the most memorable day for both Super Junior and ELF.

One of MBOA project, Shining Stars, where all ELF in the stadium was given a small torchlight to be pointed upwards when Super Junior sings the song Shining Star to make a look of shining stars in the night sky, was a great success where even Super Junior member joined to make the 'stars'.

However, even with MBOA great success there still have criticism from ELF about MBOA on SS2 in Malaysia which discourage the spirit to form MBOA for SS3 Malaysia. After much consideration, a petition to decide reformation of MBOA for SS3 in Malaysia has been made. The reformation of MBOA for SS3 Malaysia will be decided by all Malaysian ELF, if we have enough signs/votes then MBOA will be reformed for SS3 in Malaysia.

Here, I hope everyone who's reading this can sign the petition if you want MBOA to re-form for SS3 in Malaysia. As it'll be probably be hard for Super Junior to do concerts as a group in the next few years (due to older members joining military/public services), it would be better if all fan-bases of Super Junior in Malaysia to join force and to make SS3 in Malaysia the most memorable concert for them, together with ELF.

You can spread this to all ELF that you know. Make blog posts about this petition or MBOA, share the link of the petition in your Facebook and Twitter or Tumblr, forward this as an email to other ELF, make a thread in forums and many other methods. The closing date for the petition is 20th October. After the date, the reformation of MBOA will be decided.

http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/mboaforss3malaysia

The link above are the link to the petition. Click the button in green that is written 'Sign this petition' to sign the petition. Any efforts on spreading the petition until it's well known is greatly appreciated.

one of a hell time table

2010-09-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

oh my god.
I can't believe I'm seeing this myself.
my time table came out. and this is so hectic.
I can call it the worst time table ever.
WHY?

Semester 1 killed me, K.O.ed me to the top already.
and now Semester 2 again?
damn shit man.
Monday from 8 in the morning to 6 in the evening have to stay in the college.
total 4 classes and 1 and a half hour break in between every class.
this is killing me.
means I have to wake up at 6.30am.
go out at 7.20am and reach home at 7.30pm
12 hours outside. not to play but to study.
back to old times. GREAT!
I'm just being sarcastic .sigh.

Luckily, first week only have to attend lecture class.
means I can combine 3 time tables and become one
so eventually I just have to go for 2 days for the first week. YAY!!!
sigh. whatever. I'll get used to it anyway.
It's just when I saw it.
I was like? seriously? this is my time table for sem 2?
don't ask me out on Monday and Tuesday.
you won't get the chance to see me.
I NEED TO REST AFTER MY CLASS

Well, now as you see.
I need to go back to my bed and
CRY OUT LOUD!

2010-09-22T12:39:00.000+08:00

Happy Mooncake Festival everyone.
nothing special at all.
I rather go back to my young days and play lantern like nobody business
than now sitting here nothing to do because I'm all grown up.
unlike when I was young.
screw human. why does human grow? grrr.

I've desire one thing so much
I wanna be an english dude who always speaks english
and with the very nice and wavy hair and nice colour. and long as well.
and buy as many dresses as I want.
and buy high waist pants as many as I could.
and drive nice cars haha
even better, get a good looking, rich ass boyfriend. haha

4 more days to back to college
damn suffering wey.
c'mon people. call me out la.
later I start my college I can't hang out
you guys won't look for me again. sigh. pitty me.

back to my drama. bye.

2010-09-17T00:57:00.001+08:00

seriously. why is everyone facing emotional disorder lately?

almost all of us. this is devastating.

thinking about it also brings down someone's mood

every person I know is saying something like.

"he has a girlfriend so i'll just get over it"

or the other way round,

"she has a boyfriend, but I know what I'm doing."

I'm so tired.
but to be frank
really wanted to get know that guy I mentioned. *law of attraction

don't know when's the time we have boyfriends and girlfriends

and then we meet up together with our partners.

one thing I'm sure and clear about is I haven't find mine.

Have you? or had you?

2010-09-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

this is super weird super super super weird.
Why so random?
super random!
gosh. save me!

2010-09-11T16:55:00.004+08:00

my goodness. that was super awesome. lol. today SM TOWM LIVE 2010 will be held at Shanghai. my god. Don't know Malaysia stand the chance or not.

2010-09-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

I know sometimes it's my fault
cause for some reason
and don't know since when
I hide my feelings from you.
I'm afraid once I look for you
you'll get annoyed or what so ever.
I wish for a simple chat everyday
maybe on the phone or online chat
and I wouldn't don't want to listen to what you want to tell me.
like you said we are alike. we think things the same way. EVEN THIS.
SEE. how can we be apart? everyday my mind was like "don't know what mien doing now?"
I need someone to share with me as well.
maybe I really didn't know what made you so busy.
but after the sem one assignment I saw in your blog, ok, total shocked.
your art works were a blast.
ok as for suju. if you don't update then I help you update. *that's what I thought seriously

so, after everything, the confession, the crying and stuff.
yes no more upset. no more no talking.
just tell me everything that you wanted to tell me.
please. just no more all these incident that made both of us upset
and don't let this things bother us anymore.
like you said our relationship are way beyond those.

2010-09-07T17:49:00.000+08:00

SM Town Live 2010 was a big success in the United States over the weekend. lol

I super love SM town as all the artists are my favourite especially Super Junior and SNSD

*those who know me well knew that.

Can you believe it?

They actually fly to LOS ANGELES to have a concert. that's super cool.

eunhyuk was so worried about their popularity in U.S.

Well, his worries were just a waste because they attract 15,000 fans to the concert

what a blast man!!! Congratulations SM Town!!!

Fans from different countries. even U.S citizens went to watch. Cool.

see. so many audience!!!

ok. maybe it's not U.S citizen. but at least their have white skin. that says it all.

I LOVE SM TOWN!!!!

p/s: it's me again!

2010-09-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

It's Monday. enjoying my 3 weeks sem break.
I believe this 3 weeks sem break will just pass in a flash.

It's the 5th day since my baby, suni left Malaysia to Taiwan.
I think she's doing well there, she told Meiying that she saw her high school senior.
I believe she can make it through. Waiting for her to go online.
missing her badly already. can't wait till the day where I actually will fly to Taiwan
hope my mum let me do so. haha

After being emotional for the whole day yesterday,
I've finally understand all of these aint important.
What's important is I appreciate every person exist in my life.
It's ok with me if you don't appreciate me or you've forgot my existence in your life.
because what matters is I appreciate what we've been through and you exist in my life.
I'll never forget who you were and how important you meant to me.
Until today you still hold that position in my circle of life.
But one thing is for sure, we won't met often.
Because you chose to do so, and I believe no matter how hard I try to call you out
you would just blow that wind away.
Well, if you call me out, ya I'll definitely be there. don't worry.

p/s: you played an important role, I won't forget you, I'll love you always. I don't know whether you're reading this or not. but I hope you do so.

2010-09-06T00:04:00.003+08:00

It's so heartbreaking when I see them throwing all away their past.
If its a happy memory why delete it from your hard disk?
If its what you wanted why give it up?
I really don't know what to do right now.
I always thought I have a happy, nice and lively life until today,
it was just a dream everything was just a dream.
I always figure myself in a happy environment with friends and family around me.
I was indeed until today I am not.
I'm like a lonely kid who fall through in the sea of faces.
No people to talk to, no people to share with for this moment and most of the time.
I used to have friends who I talk everything to him/her eventually he/she changed.

People do change people could change better or worse,
for those who change either worse or to another person I do not know in just a few months,
I salute them.
Moving forward is of course a good thing to learn
but it doesn't mean you have to forget what you did in the past.
I know with all the new environment and new circle of life
inevitably you wouldn't wanna go back to how you used to be.
In a new circle of life, maybe you think the past is childish, maybe somehow you think it's a shame.
Then on behalf of myself I hereby greet you congratulations
because you moved on and left the past.
BUT sorry I chose to stay, with the old environment, old faces, old circle of life.

It's a painful decision when unhappy events happened
and were forced to erase those lovely memory stored in your own hard disk for sometime.
Great life, great people, great environment, great atmosphere, people tend to forget the old things.
They wouldn't remember what they were how they were,
sometimes they even forget people appeared in the past
and forget their feelings even loss of interest
because they don't feel like turning back their head, not even a sight.

I gave so many hope but end up I got nothing, not even an appreciation.
If you really think you appreciate me,
I can tell you,
you're very wrong because what you're doing to me now is eventually hurting me.

If you think this is you, please don't get angry, I'm just trying to express my feelings since I have no one to talk to. because like I said I'm a lonely kid.

no matter what happened.
I still have to live up and live well
in this case, I'll just forget about it and learn what he/she is doing now.
move on and forget him/her. just him/her.
to me past is also important. I'm different from you.

2010-09-02T11:33:00.000+08:00

no matter unusual happened
no matter what weird stuff happened
no matter what used to be has changed

We. Still. Have. To. Live. ON.

Farewell post For my SISTA LEONG SU NI!

2010-09-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

Bye my Friend, my Sista, my Family

Leong Su Ni.

I LOVE YOU!!!

Take care while you in Taiwan.

We will be waiting for you for Chinese New Year.

hard to say.

I feel like tearing now.

that's because I always hang out with you.

Leong Su Ni.

Keep in touch while you're in Taiwan

2010-08-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to worry about my financial. thinking of so much things to buy and the most importantly is the ticket of super junior's super show 3. all I can do now is sava as much as I could. don't eat so much take it as I'm on diet, don't spent so much on shopping. Looking for a part time job is also a tough one. this is bothering me. Tomorrow having exam and I'm here blogging and listening to Super junior super show 3 live qingdao. what la me.

LAI YIN SAN

go back to study la.
what ' cha doing infront of the labtop for the whole day?
gah I'm just wasting my precious time.
maybe I'm too stress. c'mon everyone has stress
it's like you're the only one who has it. me? yes you lai yin san darn it.

study and money
are so bothering.
gish. feel so f*cked up

2010-08-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

People nowadays don't blog. As if they're living in the cave. Maybe I'm of the cave ~~man~~ haha woman.