you know what?
I super love how my blog looks like now.
because it's SNSD HOOT as header. they look super hot right? haha
I know. Big fan of SNSD
whatever, need to sleep now

my Suni hhaa =]

had a chat with my babe SUNI haha
super happy now.
the emo me born yesterday has just fade away haha
it's back to the happy me
thanks my babe for chit chatting with me.
made me feel much more better. lol
LOVE HER TO THE MAX
I want a group call with meiying and suni haha
miss suni badly, seriously.

XOXO

SNSD - HOOT Music Bank 102910

totally awesome you know? haha

watch it on ASTRO KBS WORLD just now

so freaking happy haha.

those who aren't a fan of their

maybe you'll like them after this haha

hope you will!

SNSD hoot mini album DAEBAK! FIGHTING!

now only I found out that I'm always lonely.
I don't get people's concern.
most of them are the one I care most.
some one has too many assignments but I don't dare to voice out
some one is in a relationship now, I don't want to interrupt them
some one has an admirer, totally have those relationship feel, which doesn't need me anymore
some one has exam to go, I should not talk
some one is doing slide show, I should leave her alone
as for the others? I don't know. I don't have a clue about it.

As for me, what I used to do when no one talks to me is listen to song
and watch drama and search for songs
always alone while others are busy with their stuff

when I feel boring, no one will be there to entertain me
when I feel boring, what I do is listen to KPOP songs
when I feel boring, I will watch music video
no matter how boring I am, I don't think they know
even though they know, they would just ignore me
and go on with their topics. which didn't really clear the boredom inside me

why am I being so emo again?
gah, what am I turning into?
some emo freak? I don't want to be one of them
I'm a optimistic person. I am, I know I am.
but I couldn't control myself from not being emo. such a freak.
whatever. I don't wanna care how people think about this.
ya, maybe I was meant to be alone, so maybe you guys should just leave me alone.

I thought you will check my blog everyday like how I check yours, it won't take you more than an hour to read it. even if it take you for one minute only I feel glad about that, but I guess you won't have the time to do so. don't know why I type this also, as if you really will read what I post here

HOOT!

haha This is HOOT by SNSD which is like so HOT! including my siwon haha

here you go!

One more to go

I submitted my Fundamental of Accounting's assignment on Monday
I did my English for Communication presentation on Tuesday
happy enough! felt so relief after I did the presentation yesterday.

So, I just have one more to go.
Macroeconomics test on Thursday which is tomorrow
I should be studying now actually, but I just feel like blogging.
I'll study tonight.

oh ya, I cried on Sunday
I still remember it haha sounds stupid though
I cried because I miss my high school days
I miss the days where we can talk like nobody's business
big bunch of friends
know almost all the students of your form. ain't it cool?
with all the QM duties, the canteen food.
that was those days.
I read all the post of last year. that's why suddenly it burst out.

I just miss high school.
The fun and
The moments
lol. High school was the brightest in my life, currently hahahaha
ya, so true, undeniable.
wondering are my friends thinking the same way too?
hope so! toodles!

Die

Living a life is like almost a mission impossible.
I'm so fed up, I even thought of transferring from TARC to Sunway
but I know my mum wouldn't let me to do so, so just forget about it.

Sometimes I regretted that I studied at TARC
because I couldn't be the old me in front of my college mates.
I don't get to say "deng", "spoiler", "don't ban yang pls".
and for goodness sake, I don't think my college mates have good sense of humor.
they don't joke how I used to joke in front of my QM kaki.
I didn't even get the chance to communicate with them in ENGLISH.
this sounds sucks ok? no English during college life? WTF! FML!
How? tell me what I should do?
I am not trying to discriminate them, but for serious, how can you not speak English?
this could kill me you know? sounds so shit.
and what they said are so superficial. Don't they know there'a big world outside?
luckily , nikki and wenxing aren't like them. for once I THANK GOD.

Sometimes I felt so relief that I studied at TARC
because I don't have to feel the peer-pressure
people in Sunway dresses nicely and with brands.
If I don't have a big amount of capital to invest it on clothes, I could die studying in Sunway.
Some more it's so near to Pyramid, I could broke easily.
and get fat easily because the land area is not as big as TARC.
and near to Pyramid, everyday go there eat those not nice but expensive food, some more it's fattening also.
MY GOD!

I feel contradictory. gish! really deng.
It's so hard for me to find some one who really speaks English in my college right now.
oh, yes I remember, the only hot guy in my lecture hall speaks fluent English.
but, I don't get to know him, because he's like so cool
and maybe he thinks girls from TARC are weird.

Life is so hard for me,
If I'm rich enough, I wouldn't be here sharing all the troubles.
I can buy whatever I want and do whatever I want.

No English during college life. EFFECT OF IT? SIMPLE!

GOT ROTTEN OR DIE!

saw that photo above?

*guess what?

He is the one

who will  be in charge to....

kill me.

Nights people

wondering whether to buy the Super Show 2 DVD or not.
in dilemma, officially. always in anyway. sigh, pathetic la me.
like those wu zhi shao nu. haha. but I don't care I'm enjoying it. haha
bye dudes.

some people just get the opportunities that they wished for
but some people don't.
the do's and the don'ts



























WELL I AM THE DON'TS

Fuck My Life. worst day ever.
suppose to submit my presentation outline draft to my lecturer to do checking.
got all my details, ready to type, and the fucking asshole microsoft word wants me to enter a product key.
nevermind, I found the product key, finish entering.
this time even great, it shows "the key is invalid"
I was like what the fuck? how am I suppose to type my outline then?
this is so not good, so unlucky ok?
the day before to check my outline, and the microsoft word told me my product key is invalid.
unbelievable man. SHIT! damn pissed now. god damn it. GAH!!!!!!!

the ugliest person I ever met

I suddenly see myself as an ugly girl
I don't know. When I look at my own picture and after that looking pictures of others, seriously I feel that I'm ugly no joke. my hair looks ugly my skin looks ugly my body looks ugly. everything in me is ugly. I didn't even want to look into the mirror. I really don't know why. gah! bang walls. I don't get to dress nicely like how people dress. I don't get to shop as much as I want like how people shop.

I admit I'm a little "kiasu"
I don't believe people who doesn't have a little bit of kiasu-ness deep inside their personality.
never mind, no one will read my blog also. so no matter how I rude or how emo I wrote, no one will know.
sigh. Lai Yin San, is a person who was once and always isolated by her friends. Don't ask me why I feel so, the feelings just came out of no where. Nobody likes the feeling of being isolated, but sometimes we just have to get used to it. life is morbid and we have to deal with the pain no matter where and when. FML.

When I see models, I wanna be like them. But I'm ugly.
no nice look, no nice legs, no nice body.
I think quite a number of people thinks I'm ugly and not good looking, they just don't tell it out. humans are like that. never tell the truth out to each other.
totally pissed and frustrated now.
I always feel that I'm the ugliest among my friends. yes. THE UGLIEST.
sigh, enough said, I have to get back to my tutorial questions and assignments. it's time for me to end the emo session. shall continue when I get back home. not in the blog. but alone in the room.

Contact lenses are running out of stock. SHIT!
damn pissed now.
waiting for my aunt to re-stock it for me..

tons of assignment. GAH!
it's like I'm facing a mountain full with book you know. and everything has to be submitted on week 5.

first, my Fundamental of Accounting research paper on Inventories.
second, my individual presentation for English Communication.
third, my Macroeconomics coursework.

this is suffering. Haven't even start my report and presentation outline, I'm like so dead. so not cool you know? and today I slacked whole day in front of the labtop at my mum's office. all I did was facebook, twitter and pps. I did do a little research but after that I couldn't bare with the boredom and I went to watch dramas on PPS.

Week 3 is coming to an end but I am confident that I can do all the research by coming Sunday. FIGHTING!
Seriously need to work harder in sem 2. I'm proceeding to a different level of difficulties.
fingers crossed, wish me luck in everything!

Seriously envy those people who get scholarship and get the chance to proceed their studies at overseas.
they meet new environment, new friends, new culture. so cool!
Recently, I admire a girl who are younger than me.
she's studying in Singapore, rich girl, beautiful as well, have brains also.
she's not the dumb blonde type.
I think wenxing knows who am I talking about. /haha.
Seriously I wanna be like her wey, she's almost perfect. Just thinking being a perfect girl also feels awesome.
Hope I'll be like her one day and I hope is soon. haha

lol. I should go to sleep now. sudah 11.25pm.
nights people. I don't think anyone will read my blog also.
don't care. I'll be the people!

Gee Japanese Version. SNSD!
Love them to the max.

This is ME!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


This is ME! not all of them are true. but some? YES!
What about you? lol.

To know what yourself are. Just click! lol

Petition for reformation of MBOA for SS3 in Malaysia 2011

Dear ELF,

as most of you guys already know, for SS2 in Malaysia, Super Junior fan-bases such as MYSJ, Sapphire Pearls Malaysia, ChocoFam, SJ Royal Noble, MYSG SJ Sapphire Blue Palace and Super Junior thread in Cari Forum has formed an alliance called Malaysia Blue Ocean Alliance (MBOA) for the purpose of uniting all Malaysian ELF on the concert day and to make the day as the most memorable day for both Super Junior and ELF.

One of MBOA project, Shining Stars, where all ELF in the stadium was given a small torchlight to be pointed upwards when Super Junior sings the song Shining Star to make a look of shining stars in the night sky, was a great success where even Super Junior member joined to make the 'stars'.

However, even with MBOA great success there still have criticism from ELF about MBOA on SS2 in Malaysia which discourage the spirit to form MBOA for SS3 Malaysia. After much consideration, a petition to decide reformation of MBOA for SS3 in Malaysia has been made. The reformation of MBOA for SS3 Malaysia will be decided by all Malaysian ELF, if we have enough signs/votes then MBOA will be reformed for SS3 in Malaysia.

Here, I hope everyone who's reading this can sign the petition if you want MBOA to re-form for SS3 in Malaysia. As it'll be probably be hard for Super Junior to do concerts as a group in the next few years (due to older members joining military/public services), it would be better if all fan-bases of Super Junior in Malaysia to join force and to make SS3 in Malaysia the most memorable concert for them, together with ELF.

You can spread this to all ELF that you know. Make blog posts about this petition or MBOA, share the link of the petition in your Facebook and Twitter or Tumblr, forward this as an email to other ELF, make a thread in forums and many other methods. The closing date for the petition is 20th October. After the date, the reformation of MBOA will be decided.

http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/mboaforss3malaysia

The link above are the link to the petition. Click the button in green that is written 'Sign this petition' to sign the petition. Any efforts on spreading the petition until it's well known is greatly appreciated.