I am so so so speechless right now
Apparently, you're not happy
which makes me unhappy too
because I am so not use to your unhappy expression

I know the problem
you know the problem
maybe she knows the problem
I don't hope it'll continue
but all I want now is like
back to the way it is
better, like last week, we had fun right?

after you told me what happened
how you feel
what are you worrying
I tempt to figure out someway to make you happier
I try to console you and hope your depression
will fade away
but how?

gosh! why everyone nowadays are so emo?
yet, I'm still here talking about some emo stuff
No! I should be the happy one
so I can cheer you up
I mean seriously
I don't want you to be that miserable
anyway, just bring up a big bright smile all right?

DON'T THINK TOO MUCH!

it'll be all right

yo check this out
basically there's nothing to check or out what so ever
just that I'm facing a huge bosan mood now lol

these 3 days are Sukan Saringan
haha, scolded my juniors during meeting
some of the people were quite shocked
but I think some of it sudah used to it lol

haih my cousin told me something
50% bad 50% good lol
I feel like freezing myself in a refrigerator
leave me alone
before I go insane.

after so long
is there nothing else to stop this?

I don't want to be a lifeless person.

I watched this at Astro lol
omg, I seriously love this movie so so much
damn nice la
lol, I'm gonna go London when
my brother and sister are there studying
and I'm going to watch a football match, LIVE!!
one of my- to do things list

and I'm also waiting for GOAL 3
GOAL 2 said "to be continued..."
at the end there lol
want to watch that desperately lol

guess what people?
congratz to me again
because I sprained my ankle again lol
damn chun la me

anyway people
next week is Sukan Saringan
everything will back to normal soon
I mean my daily schedule
my schedule now is all up side down

today wenxing, xingkun, crystal, joe, nyitkang, meihwan, nicole and choon yit
went to the daerah bomba camp lol
heard that wenxing said
she's already half dead lol
imagine when she's back from the camp
she might lying on the hospital bed
she said that herself too lol

planned to go kexin's house to sleepover
but my mum and dad wont let me one la
just face it la LAI YIN SAN lol
due to my injured leg
I cant make it to the majlis anugerah tomorrow
SAD CASE!!!

LOL it's ok la
I'll just take that as a rest
damn long never stay at house on Saturday
every single week busy with this and that
lol that's all for today la
off to the television
I'm such a TV addict

damn beh song la
it's like we marched better than ahem
some badan uniform
but yet we never have a place
which is not very happy

but it's all right la
we'll win at the marching competition bomba
INTER-SCHOOL lol
and we'll get any of the 3 places lol
hope so la seriously

then we went to Mid Valley
our first plan is having a movie
but then yesterday that stupid boon hong told me
he want to sunway with his ah girl lol
Leong Boon Hong!!
Fong Fei Kei la, damn pandai la you
go for your girl la lol

then end up we went to sushi king
and shop for shoon siang's present
shop for few shops I guess lol
and edn up we went to F.O.S
to buy his present lol

now, I'm at his house blogging
chun kan? lol
he's having a party now
sista went
school friends went
and I have to run to places lol
ok la, I ciaoz first!!

toodles guy

the moral kerja amal
yes I know it's grandmother story
yet I still need to tell
I still left one undone
because I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO
apparently, that's the thing that is driving me nuts
these few days- Sukan Tara
exhausted!

by the crazy as ever -yinsan

woot!
haha
last Friday was the first day of Sukan Tara
I didn't walk for a very long and far distance
but yet I still feel tired
weird me..
tomorrow still have to continue with the Sukan Tara
gosh!! not into the Sukan Tara thing
is not that I don't want to do
what I meant is I like Saringan more compare to Tara

I want to watch this BADLY
I think it's nice la
but I don't think anyone will wanna accompany me
to watch this
sad case

by the crazy as ever -yinsan

after the meeting
I hope everything will back to normal
really definitely 100% normal
back to the way it is
which is everyone is very happy
which is everyone talking crap crazily
and laugh like nobody's business together
and that's the best way
after all these unhappy stuffs
but yet we're still a big family right?
family do fights
but there're always a way that
we can make it up all together
I still love you all!!
banyak banyak banyak!!!
*big hugs

by the crazy as ever -yinsan

I am so sick of it already
what the hell is wrong with my life?
why is this happening again?
why is this happening for the second time?
and ya I'm so suck at it
I always screw it up
so, can anyone of you tell me
what is wrong with me?

and another thing is
no you're not lonely
and you're not alone
if it's so, why don't you think about both of us
before you said you are friendless

both of us
kept in our heart for a long time already
we never say it out loud
because we don't want make things worse
so we keep and keep and keep

but everyone has their limit
yes, they can keep
but every empty spaces have their limits
until one day it will also be full
but do both of us have a choice?
no we never had a chance to ask for a right
so what if we tell?
will things change better?
will everyone care?
no, I don't think so

I've kept this for a long time
don't know since when
I thought it would be better
if I don't say it out loud
but it turn out to be worse
something unexpected

I can't take it anymore
I am going to burst
yet no one will care about it
or maybe except her
because we are the same

p/s : you've got it all wrong, but so what if you understand? because you won't give a damn, because you're over it which I screwed it up all with my hands.

by the crazy as ever -yinsan