a little bit moody today

no any reason

ok not not at all

going temple tonight might be the reason

anyway half way leaving temple for yum cha session.

I seriously wanna get drunk

despite where am I having it

even my house will do

something's bothering me

but no clue on what it is

okay, fine

shall stop whining about things I don't even know

off-ing bye.

still being a yoona-wannabe =)

toodle peeps.

LOL. done watching 

Taiwan drama Who's the One 

AND

Singapore Series Devotion

LOL. both are pawesome. hehe

both of the series

*two thumbs up*

GO WATCH!!!

this semester is just so stressful and it's only the 4th week

I can tell it's gonna get tougher in the following weeks

now, what's bothering me is this ulcer in my mouth

my goodness, it really hurts. I've tried so many ways to get rid of it

put on with salt, apply some papaya cream

but it just seems the SAME after 2 days of trying

SHIT. JUST GO AWAY, you make me miserable these few days

seriously, feel like digging it out with a small knife

and I don't know what to do with it

since touching it with my tongue

or

stretching my mouth

or 

drinking water

will eventually make me pain. T.T

urgh, fine whatever. 

water, you're my only saviour.

see? EMO-ing

BYE

LOL. lovin' my new blog title image

feels so warm every time I view my blog

waiting for my 4pm lecture

thought of blogging to kill time

puff, here I am blogging =)

I wanted to cook quite badly these days

still wondering what to cook,

baking is not a bad thing to do also

will consider, provided I have sufficient time

 certain people were so persist

on the concept of materialistic or vain

 they were so against it back then

but now? they're just one of those

materialistic and vain dumb badass

being beautiful doesn't has to own a fab life.

beautiful is easy. that's the definition

I would like to clarify a thing

I wasn't pointing about anyone

just what I saw in the society

and made my light bulb lighted for that moment

So, if any of you who are reading

please don't misunderstand =)

*even sometimes I feel I'm kind of materialistic and vain

JUST SOME TIMES

about the new semester

 my Financial Management tutor

he looks a bit alike to Zang Zi Wai HAHA

okay, what I really wanted to point out is

he always left us inside the fire 

and you rescue your life by yourself

it means he's not gonna give us any

hard copy of the answers 

but by giving it orally. ==

I went "Mr. Chai, why you so awesome?"

ya, now what's left is my own effort since

HE IS NOT GIVING ANYTHING

might die just like that

IF I couldn't undersand

 please be good to me, buddha *prayhard

Last last last.

SNSD hahaha 

they're making a comeback this week or next week

NOT SURE. postponed. 

one word. EXCITED!

you should be excited as well. LOL

off for class. BYE

toodles peeps. XOXO 

a promise to myself

I think I remember I promised myself to update this blog frequently

make it more lively, but so obvious this blog has been dead for months. 

My new sem has started. 

I don't like my new time table at all. but luckily the college was kind enough

that they make my Friday class ends at 1.30pm. not bad huh? 

but Monday till Wednesday schedule are so tiring. 

Seriously you cannot imagine it. 

cause it's the first time that my class ends at 7pm. 

fortunately, my tutor has this habit to end class asap. 

meaning we can end this shitty 7pm earlier. 

Well, enough said on the new sem thingy.

I was planning to go club last Friday

since my parents are not at KL

but the pathetic thing is, I found out that

I have no clubbing kakis at all.

Yes, I don't have. So, I turn off the plan

But, I did earned a little that Friday night

yes, you heard me, earned. in terms of money

It was the Affin Investment Bank Annual Dinner

held at Royale Chulan Hotel, splendid isn't is?

photos to be uploaded soon, it's with Brandon Chee

Me, Mei ying, Lin lin, Eva and Brandon went to work that night

because Eva works at the event organizer company

and Brandon mum is a friend of the boss.

So ya, we had fun that night. though is short. Haha 

and also, that Friday I went to the Padini Warehouse Sale

It was madness, it was so crowded

flooded with so many people inside

the moment I stepped into the warehouse

I started to sweat like pouring rain. imagine that!

I think no photos were taken, you should really have a look on that madness

RM5 for all items, who wouldn't want it?

I did grab something nice though, and it's all black and white

I cannot swear that this is my last time 

doing such crazy thing

but it's quite fun having such experience

my sis will definitely say I gone insane

but what I think is, sis, you're too not adventurous

no wonder she has a boring life, lifeless much indeed

no joke, she has NO LIFE at all

I didn't see her hanging out as often as I do

I didn't see her keeping in touch with her friends.

Well, everybody's different, that is why.

Enough for today, need to have my lunch now

supah hungry, yes I mean it.

almost faint while watching TV just now.

HAHA. 

toodles peeps. XOXO

big small eyes I have
urgh, c'mon everybody DOES. 

I do not know how to blog anymore. Forgive me. LOL I SUCK HAHA

toodles peeps

It's time for an update. as simple as it could be
I think I'm freaking out of my mind.
Still daring to waste some of my time to blog a little LOL

Well, apparently having finals and I don't feel like sitting it
but in fact I cannot do so because this is my finals
and I fight so hard for it, hopefully my results give me a pay back. 4.0 perhaps? *cross fingers

and there is this person who was and is and always will be annoying.
F him. you don't have the right to decide where should I and shouldn't go.
stop giving me those retarded face
I'm not like your pet sister who as well give those face you have.
turn your face around and keep it away from me.
I DON'T LIKE IT.

thank you for lighting up my anger today. *WHY TODAY*?
now I feel like I'm the loneliest person in the world
F you. you retard

Empty Apartment

I sense changes.

I don't know what to do. 

I'm afraid of everything. 

Just save me.

*forget about it Lai Yin San, no one will be there to save you, you're invisible, remember?*

oh, now I remember, thank you for reminding me. appreciate it much.
ya, I live in an empty apartment. Just me, nothing else.
don't show sympathy, I don't deserve it anyway. I have exist problem.
So you can ignore my existence, cause I don't really exist anyway.
bye.

I sense changes.

I don't know what to do. 

I'm afraid of everything. 

Just save me. 

Song of the day.

Down On My Head - Yellowcard



I work all night
For one more day that I can say I'm all alone
Alone
I just need time and I will say what I believe and I'll come home
Home

And all I know

I never thought I would wake up in bed 
watching the world coming down on my head
I'd sleep like a dog if you would never have said 
this is the world coming down on your head

As life flies by
I'm not sure how I'm gonna do this all again
Again
So line by line I write this down and I'm just trying to find the end 
The end

And all I know

I never thought I would wake up in bed 
watching the world coming down on my head
I'd sleep like a dog if you would never have said, 
this is the world coming down on your head
You gave it to me I remember it read, 
you've got the world coming down on your head
There's nothing to fight for it's already dead 
and this is the world coming down on my head

when will it all end
what of you makes others follow you

I never thought I would wake up in bed 
watching the world coming down on my head
I'd sleep like a dog if you would never have said, 
this is the world coming down on your head
I'm not gonna swallow the lie that I'm fed
cause I want the world coming down on my head
You're gonna find out you're already dead 
and I was the world coming down on your head