I finally understand why some people who encountered LDR eventually just couldn't make it through. Its not easy to be in a LDR regardless of the time frame. Maybe it's my problem, for being so overly attached back then, so used to being together all the time. whatever. Even without the existence of LDR my relationship with him would still be shaking as well, so now things are even worse with LDR. Seriously, screw this shit. Just want to live to the fullest during these months in UK. I can settle this shit when I'm back in Malaysia and everything will fall back into place eventually. 

It's so horrible to see all the unfortunate things are increasingly happening, war between countries, natural disaster,  accidents that are happening around the world. What has the world become? I thought we were educated to avoid war after since it is seen to be helpless but only taking innocent lives away and does no benefit either countries. Why do governments cannot sit down relax and solve the problem peacefully? War is the last thing that every human being wish to happen, but then lately, human seems to be very indulged in war, living the life of the past, those suffering moments which I clearly do not understand why. It might release your anger but then it is taking millions of innocent lives away as well. do not know what to comment about it. I just want world peace, that's all. 

Things are clearly not going very smoothly, but I do hope that it will get into the right path in every part of the world, including myself. Let's hope for the best. 

Hi hi!

Its D second month here in Sheffield. Starting to really miss home. All the people and delicious foods. I wonder how people who studied overseas endured everyday for years living with friends only. I really do. Guess I'm a family person after all, cause eventually no matter where you go, there is no place like home. Until the end of a day, the place you miss most is your home, family, friends.

Its endeavouring, but if I have the option to choose I rather not leave my family. Living alone, I simply cannot except for when I'm really forced to, like working overseas. But on the other hand, its a good experience to live alone. Every house chores, I have to do it myself, maybe to some people its nothing, but I don't do house chores the moment I arrive on this earth, I have a maid ever since I was born. Not I really didn't do it before (been maid for almost half a year during Form 5), its just that normally all the time, I do have a maid.

Even though I helped out alot in temple, but the feeling and experience is still different. At least I don't have to cook when I'm in Malaysia. I don't have to wash my dishes, I don't have to think of transport problem (just drive to my destination), I don't have to think about how I spend my money on groceries and therefore I can shop as frequent as I want. BUT at here is totally a different story. I need to calculate every penny of my living expenses, making sure that I don't over spend it, cause I'm not the type of richass people whereby they spend all they want and ask for more == total spoiled brat. Just an above average by the way. So, it's harder than I thought.

It really gave me a lesson, when I go back Malaysia, I will appreciate every bit of what my parents did for me. Taking into account for unseen necessary daily living expenses. It's visible but it's also invisible. Trust me, you wont understand not until you try to live alone. Maybe it's a little late for me to experience this, but better late than never. I guess that's all for today, need to get prep for class. Ciao.

When you get older, you know who stays with you and who are the ones that meant to you.

I don't really wanna be fussy about birthday wishes and all, but when someone stand a place in your heart, you wish that they'll wish you like sincerely, from the bottom of their heart. But when they do not do so, you clearly know how much worth you are to them. No point reserving my heart to such people I guess?

At least for now, I know who really cares about me and who matters to me.

无谓的人，如果没有利益上的交易，请滚开。就这样，晚安。

p/s: I'll blog at least bi-daily to keep memories in  UK.