Thursday, September 23, 2010

one of a hell time table

oh my god.
I can't believe I'm seeing this myself.
my time table came out. and this is so hectic.
I can call it the worst time table ever.
WHY?

Semester 1 killed me, K.O.ed me to the top already.
and now Semester 2 again?
damn shit man.
Monday from 8 in the morning to 6 in the evening have to stay in the college.
total 4 classes and 1 and a half hour break in between every class.
this is killing me.
means I have to wake up at 6.30am.
go out at 7.20am and reach home at 7.30pm
12 hours outside. not to play but to study.
back to old times. GREAT!
I'm just being sarcastic .sigh.

Luckily, first week only have to attend lecture class.
means I can combine 3 time tables and become one
so eventually I just have to go for 2 days for the first week. YAY!!!
sigh. whatever. I'll get used to it anyway.
It's just when I saw it.
I was like? seriously? this is my time table for sem 2?
don't ask me out on Monday and Tuesday.
you won't get the chance to see me.
I NEED TO REST AFTER MY CLASS

Well, now as you see.
I need to go back to my bed and
CRY OUT LOUD!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Happy Mooncake Festival everyone. 
nothing special at all.
I rather go back to my young days and play lantern like nobody business
than now sitting here nothing to do because I'm all grown up.
unlike when I was young.
screw human. why does human grow? grrr.

I've desire one thing so much
I wanna be an english dude who always speaks english
and with the very nice and wavy hair and nice colour. and long as well.
and buy as many dresses as I want.
and buy high waist pants as many as I could.
and drive nice cars haha
even better, get a good looking, rich ass boyfriend. haha

4 more days to back to college
damn suffering wey.
c'mon people. call me out la.
later I start my college I can't hang out
you guys won't look for me again. sigh. pitty me.

back to my drama. bye.

Friday, September 17, 2010

seriously. why is everyone facing emotional disorder lately?
almost all of us. this is devastating.
thinking about it also brings down someone's mood
every person I know is saying something like.
"he has a girlfriend so i'll just get over it"
 or the other way round,
 "she has a boyfriend, but I know what I'm doing."
I'm so tired.
but to be frank
really wanted to get know that guy I mentioned. *law of attraction
don't know when's the time we have boyfriends and girlfriends 
and then we meet up together with our partners. 
one thing I'm sure and clear about is I haven't find mine. 
Have you? or had you?

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

this is super weird super super super weird.
Why so random?
super random!
gosh. save me!

Saturday, September 11, 2010




my goodness. that was super awesome. lol. today SM TOWM LIVE 2010 will be held at Shanghai. my god. Don't know Malaysia stand the chance or not.

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

I know sometimes it's my fault
cause for some reason
and don't know since when
I hide my feelings from you.
I'm afraid once I look for you
you'll get annoyed or what so ever.
I wish for a simple chat everyday
maybe on the phone or online chat
and I wouldn't don't want to listen to what you want to tell me.
like you said we are alike. we think things the same way. EVEN THIS.
SEE. how can we be apart? everyday my mind was like "don't know what mien doing now?"
I need someone to share with me as well.
maybe I really didn't know what made you so busy.
but after the sem one assignment I saw in your blog, ok, total shocked.
your art works were a blast.
ok as for suju. if you don't update then I help you update. *that's what I thought seriously

so, after everything, the confession, the crying and stuff.
yes no more upset. no more no talking.
just tell me everything that you wanted to tell me.
please. just no more all these incident that made both of us upset
and don't let this things bother us anymore.
like you said our relationship are way beyond those.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

SM Town Live 2010 was a big success in the United States over the weekend. lol
I super love SM town as all the artists are my favourite especially Super Junior and SNSD
*those who know me well knew that.

Can you believe it? 
They actually fly to LOS ANGELES to have a concert. that's super cool.
eunhyuk was so worried about their popularity in U.S.
Well, his worries were just a waste because they attract 15,000 fans to the concert
what a blast man!!! Congratulations SM Town!!!
Fans from different countries. even U.S citizens went to watch. Cool.

see. so many audience!!!

ok. maybe it's not U.S citizen. but at least their have white skin. that says it all.

I LOVE SM TOWN!!!!
p/s: it's me again!

Monday, September 06, 2010

It's Monday. enjoying my 3 weeks sem break.
I believe this 3 weeks sem break will just pass in a flash.

It's the 5th day since my baby, suni left Malaysia to Taiwan.
I think she's doing well there, she told Meiying that she saw her high school senior.
I believe she can make it through. Waiting for her to go online.
missing her badly already. can't wait till the day where I actually will fly to Taiwan
hope my mum let me do so. haha

After being emotional for the whole day yesterday,
I've finally understand all of these aint important.
What's important is I appreciate every person exist in my life.
It's ok with me if you don't appreciate me or you've forgot my existence in your life.
because what matters is I appreciate what we've been through and you exist in my life.
I'll never forget who you were and how important you meant to me.
Until today you still hold that position in my circle of life.
But one thing is for sure, we won't met often.
Because you chose to do so, and I believe no matter how hard I try to call you out
you would just blow that wind away.
Well, if you call me out, ya I'll definitely be there. don't worry.

p/s: you played an important role, I won't forget you, I'll love you always. I don't know whether you're reading this or not. but I hope you do so.
It's so heartbreaking when I see them throwing all away their past.
If its a happy memory why delete it from your hard disk?
If its what you wanted why give it up?
I really don't know what to do right now.
I always thought I have a happy, nice and lively life until today,
it was just a dream everything was just a dream.
I always figure myself in a happy environment with friends and family around me.
I was indeed until today I am not.
I'm like a lonely kid who fall through in the sea of faces.
No people to talk to, no people to share with for this moment and most of the time.
I used to have friends who I talk everything to him/her eventually he/she changed.

People do change people could change better or worse,
for those who change either worse or to another person I do not know in just a few months,
I salute them.
Moving forward is of course a good thing to learn
but it doesn't mean you have to forget what you did in the past.
I know with all the new environment and new circle of life
inevitably you wouldn't wanna go back to how you used to be.
In a new circle of life, maybe you think the past is childish, maybe somehow you think it's a shame.
Then on behalf of myself I hereby greet you congratulations
because you moved on and left the past.
BUT sorry I chose to stay, with the old environment, old faces, old circle of life.

It's a painful decision when unhappy events happened
and were forced to erase those lovely memory stored in your own hard disk for sometime.
Great life, great people, great environment, great atmosphere, people tend to forget the old things.
They wouldn't remember what they were how they were,
sometimes they even forget people appeared in the past
and forget their feelings even loss of interest
because they don't feel like turning back their head, not even a sight.

I gave so many hope but end up I got nothing, not even an appreciation.
If you really think you appreciate me,
I can tell you,
you're very wrong because what you're doing to me now is eventually hurting me.

If you think this is you, please don't get angry, I'm just trying to express my feelings since I have no one to talk to. because like I said I'm a lonely kid.

no matter what happened.
I still have to live up and live well
in this case, I'll just forget about it and learn what he/she is doing now.
move on and forget him/her. just him/her.
to me past is also important. I'm different from you.

Thursday, September 02, 2010

no matter unusual happened
no matter what weird stuff happened
no matter what used to be has changed


We. Still. Have. To. Live. ON.

Farewell post For my SISTA LEONG SU NI!

Bye my Friend, my Sista, my Family 
Leong Su Ni. 
I LOVE YOU!!!
Take care while you in Taiwan. 
We will be waiting for you for Chinese New Year.
hard to say.
I feel like tearing now.
that's because I always hang out with you.
Leong Su Ni.
Keep in touch while you're in Taiwan