my mood now is so up and down
I don't know why I feel so


It's a brand new year tomorrow
but I'm feeling so moody right now.
I feel so isolated.


I'm all alone in this consider big house.
Parents went to wedding dinner at a hotel some where around One U
brother went out with his buddys
sister and taiwan now.
It wont make a difference if she's at Malaysia
she'll be going out with her friends too



Well, I'm just all alone here.
Later going yum cha with D five
but why I feel so moody still?
Maybe some thing happened
but I can't tell it out loud.


I have no one to share with.
I have so much to tell it's all inside my heart.
I didn't have this feeling for quite a long time already




WHY??
why it pops out at the last day of 2009
can't you just give me a happy last day of 2009
seriously I feel so fucked up now.
not even a smile on my face right now


I hardly can smile today
I've done all the house work
I'm so tired now
But at the same time
all I can do is just remain silence.



sometimes I wonder
Two is better than one
because you can share stuffs with your boy or your girl










OR














one is better than two
because you don't have to worry for the other half
and also reduce financial problem lol







every thing seems so complicated
I don't think there's people
can see through what I'm thinking














I never show those unhappy expression
although I'll feel angry
but I seldom show it
maybe people might think
is it true?














but compare to last time yes
I try to reduce the chance to show it
that's why since then
no one really knows what I'm thinking.














I just wanna be alone right at this moment
I don't know why.




I feel like going out to the sea
and relax
and maybe go
some where else
where nobody will find me there









I just wanna calm down
but can I?

Last day of 2009

Last day of 2009.
super duper miss 2009.

because 2009 left me the best memories
too many memories.
and it's all happy memories

Last day of 2009.
sitting at home doing nothing
memang lifeless.

Want to look for a friend to yum cha
also don't have.
memang lifeless.

Why am I so lifeless?
so many memories within this year
but end up the last day of 2009
I'm all here alone in the house.

I should look for some thing to do
at the last day of 2009.
But guess what
I had no idea what I can I do
at the last day of 2009.

I miss them so much.
it's so damn much.
super duper damn much.

it's alright.
we still can hang out
though we're not together
at the last day of 2009.

and lastly.
goodbye 2009 and hello to












































2010

















p/s: I still want to go out. haha

farewell post lol

Tomorrow Xingkun my so called darling
is leaving KL and heading Nilai
to further his studies.

I'm so gonna miss him
as he's my darling la. lol
and then Yan Jang and Zhen Nam
going to National Service at 2nd of January 2010.
definitely gonna miss them too.

In that case, 3 friends leaving me at a time
to some where at Malaysia
but not the same place with me. DUH~
my life will reduce lots of fun times.

Yan jang and zhen nam better.
they're just leaving for 3 months
but Xingkun different
he will be at Nilai. its Nilai.

NILAI

NILAI

NILAI

which is quite far from KL
will be there for 5 years.
5 years?
after he finish his course maybe I'm at overseas already.

























SSSSSSOOOOOOO















how to meet?















I don't care.

TING XINGKUN

holiday you must come back to see all of us
or maybe weekends.











I can't believe this.
2 more days to 2010.
this is definitely a new year
because I'm stepping to a higher level in my life.













OWWWWWHHHH MY!!!!!!!
I am so nervous right now!!!
ciaoz peoples

lost

I have so many to tell
but it seems like
I have no one to share with.

end of topic.

p/s: miss them already

I'm back again from another place

YOOOOO!!!!!!!

I'm back from Malacca lol

OMG. I can say this is the best trip ever.

these QM kawan baik memang dai b plus fun.

I had so much fun and it's totally awesome.







YOU KNOW WHAT GUYS???!!!



this is only the first trip
there's tons of trips waiting for us right at the head.


and we'll keep in touch
of course we will
because we like to chat and being 38 together

though we like to quarrel
but I don't think there's someone like us
we talk until we fight


BUT!!!

the way we fight is memang unbelievable
which is we laugh when we fight
and the reason why we fight is super stupid
is pointless we just fight for fun. 38 I know

lol. I don't have to tell much.
It's enough as long as we know that
we had a great time together


AND











WE ARE VERY HAPPY TO BE TOGETHER
LOVE YOU GUYS
BIG HUG
XOXO

Tomorrow going to Melaka.

HAHA so guys don't miss me

I'll be back at christmas.

Will be celebrating christmas with the QM peeps.

I know I have a busy holiday

busy schedule after SPM

oh ya and one more thing

I'm so confuse now.

I don't know which college I want to study la.

too many choices gonna die

if the situation continue to be like that.

have to find a day and do a whole day

ONLINE RESEARCH ON COLLEGE!!!!


LAI YIN SAN!!!
GAMBATEH!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Training Camp

I just got back from

CAMP

14-19 of Dec 2009

it was super fun yo though it's very tired

skipped one day

cause went to prom

and PROM was super fun too

my leg damn pain after wearing those heels

will blog about prom later but as for now

I'll blog about the camp first

Came back at 3.30pm slept till 6.30pm

I was super exhausted

slept at 2am then wake up at 6 or 6.30am for 5 nights

2 days later going to Melaka some more

MEMANG SUSAH!!!!

not consider group leader this time

more likely an advisor to the team mates

not much pressure this time compare to previous years

Just so you know

it's a training camp

so it's quite normal to feel the tension

but as an advisor

I think me and my friends were quite relax

We went to play paintball yesterday

was very fun

my team won once and lost once

hahahahahaha

I know it's not very geng or whatever

but at least I got win LOL

but then hor,

Mei ying my sista injured outside the paintball field

don't know who so ganas

the ball went through the net

and then shot at meiying's forehead

Sistas were so worried about her

sent her to hospital

luckily doctor said not very big deal

*relieved*

Overall the camp was fun la

though this year teacher don't want

to organize other camps

at least we have the chance

to be trained

Next year

most probably will have other camps

can't wait it will be very fun

LIKE HEAVEN LIKE HELL.

hahahahahahahah. WHAT??

I mark every camp

every thing that happened in Da zhi

I mark it all in my heart

deep deep inside my heart

Da zhi is my second home

I spent all my holidays there every year

since I'm standard 3

long one. it's been 9 years

but I'll be there

no matter how long it is

haha. omg. I can't believe this is happening
SPM is going to end real soon.
and next year will be the college life
everything seems so fast.

Today had Physics paper. yay lol
2 more subject to go. Mandarin and Chemistry

So long peeps

p/s: I love them. alot